indulgence

2008-05-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

EH HELLO EVERYBODY WHO'S STILL READING THIS THING.
*COUGHJOHNATHANCOUGH* AND I'VE BEEN WELL:DD
KTHXBYE

2008-01-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know who still sees this but..

"Taste in Fashion"
brings you YOGHURT ICE CREAM,APPARELS ETC

NP Convention Underpass
7-9 Jan 2008
(Mon-Wed)
10am-5pm

please do visit.
much thanks:)

MOVED

2007-11-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

MOVED

I've moved to http://thatprodigy.livejournal.com.

dear diary

2007-11-07T00:47:00.000+08:00

dear diary

When everything wants to go up and out of your mouth,even with the appetite down and you have this tendency to pee alot..you might just be "catching the bug".Or it could just be you over-eating because you decided to "balas dendam" or take revenge,because you're broke and free food is definitely good food.

It doesn't help that there's the diffusion of second-hand Dunhill smoke being whiffed in by your poor lungs.It's one thing to smoke (socially) and another thing to breathe in the awful smell of your brother's intoxicating Red's.

Stop bugging me for a URL and pictures.They'll appear in due time..like when I finally come up with a name for my new email add and LJ nick.Picky,picky girl.And I don't think you should bother visiting this space anymore,unless you're heading straight for archives.

Thinking about leaving all 5-7-8 entries,
has already made my heart do a triple whammy somersault flip.

doing the shift

2007-10-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

doing the shift

The only thing I hate about all the jabber about plant sex is the terminology.Other than that,it's highly interesting (like the lecturer herself who is me thinks half eurasian-half indian and can be awfully bitchy)..in a psychotic way.

Speaking of plants,mr saiful's apparently very psyched and emo for his pet subject arboriculture.Becomes all puppy-eyed and probably almost teary talking about his trees.Boy,is it gonna be a fun sem.

And shit do I have alot of that in my eyes.I think it's the eyeliner causing all the sty to form.Or the fact that it's to be used on the brows instead of under my lids.Now I'm more "sepet" than ever.

Lonely 2hr bus rides home and my pms also calls for the sepet-ness,not that this is new.The more reason to get a (new) LJ and also because I've kinda forgotten my password for the first.The reason for the existence of LJ,people.

Moving soon,take note.

i feel like a log

2007-10-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

i feel like a log

For the sake of Ben (and thank you MJ for telling),

visit DRESSSY now!!

I was bored just now and still is and the next exciting thing that happened today was seeing someone's white aunty undies,which is not very interesting kan.

Anyway this "serani" (makciks lingo for eurasian i think) probably didn't have a clue as to how short her mini denim skirt was.Sat right in front of poor me who was on the floor and in full view of her ugly..things.Thank god I was done eating before that sore eye.

IT'S NOT EVEN 10.30PM?!?!?!
Is there anything on the telly?RAH.

like marmalade on toast

2007-10-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

like marmalade on toast

The whole make-over fiesca that Tyra Banks does should be made compulsory for every woman out there suffering from shitty low self-esteem.Things are different when you're no longer in your comfort zone.

Fantastic polymates are another booster.Especially those who leave comments on your LJ telling you of how much you've been missed and that they're never too far away for you to rant to,have lunch or intellectual convos with or to bitch about you know i know.I love you people but I would love you all more if you'd give me a date for an outing:)

for inaaaaaaaa:)
And I didn't forget you,love.Even when you didn't look hard enough for a freaking payphone to call me so that I don't have to fret about you being lost somewhere somehow.You should really thank your lucky stars for looking so funnily cute today.Thank you for dinner.

(they would of course be a plusplus if they have money..eh no!they would be a plusplus IF they have money AND aren't stingy lil' farts about it.no pun intended eh)

rain around my head

2007-10-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

rain around my head

My hands itch yet again which eventually led to hair loss and choked sinks.All i can do now to salvage the situation is to either clip it or put on a headband,in hopes of looking as decently cutesy as possible.

Well it's not THAT bad but the only reason why im being sucha whiny of an ass is because my mother thinks it's "burok",or hideous.And because raz as yet to see it and no matter how much they say they don't mind or care,we girls know that every penis-growing human out there has a thing for long long locks.

oh yeah.selamat hari raya:)

my cousins like to think that they're hot stuff

it was everyone's birthday

prima deli truffle cake was so sinful

crap on my way

2007-10-15T13:38:00.000+08:00

crap on my way

Got S H I T T Y problems.
Literally.

curly wurly

2007-10-10T00:40:00.000+08:00

curly wurly

So the tug-of-war between straight and curls is finally over for me and the makcik.Aren't you glad that I,being the fantastic friend that I am,psyched you out of rebonding?HEH.

Everyone talks about how they don't like their hair after the visit to the salon,then somehow embracing it afterwards.I,HOWEVER,LOOKED LIKE A JEPUN SESAT NAK MAMPOS IN SINGAPORE (which translates to: some japan girl lost in the midst of singapore).

Ina said that "nisa's curls were to die for" but I know you're lying eh!The curls were nice but by golly was the whole er..dimension (or whatever term that stylists use la) of it all wrong.So me being the itchy fingers that I am..a pair of scissors and *snipsnip*

That has to be the most satisfying thing I've done for my (curly) locks.Embracing,embracing ..Now all I need to do is pretty much deal with the rest of the hair on my body.I shall do you all a huge favour and leave the details out.*must thread eyebrows..rah*

The makcik did Digital Perming and looks fantastic.She tells me of how Fiq couldn't stop playing with her hair,saying how soft he is and all.He sounds like a hair pervert tau.

On a side note.

(I constantly need to go to the loo ever so often and this scares me shitless.Mum says that it's PROBABLY just urinary thread which I don't think it's spelled that way,but it really just means mild infection of the urinal.Could be the teh ice earlier though but..)

I NEED TO PEE AGAIN.
UGH BYE.

PS/ Lin..muchos gracias for the recommendation:)

listnening to your heart breaking

2007-10-09T02:45:00.000+08:00

listening to your heart breaking

I'm amazing.

I've managed to wreck people's thoughts and possibly their lifes,even without lifting a finger.Funny thing is,it doesn't give me any sort of power (which at least then,something's been gained).

No matter how many sorry's or I love you's are said,they'll probably never know that I never intended any harm nor meant to betray their trust and love.God,truths are so brutal.But we still suck in and spill everything at the speed of a bullet train,no matter how hard they are.Truths will be truths,and will always prevail.

Baby,
I'm sorry things have been so hard and so messed up for you.I'm sorry that I was the cause for all the constant headaches and heartbreaks.Yet to matter how much I've scarred you,you still came back and stood by like a proud husband.

The promise I made,I will keep.No more questions,no more queries,no more puzzling mind-boogling psychobabble and theories.Just loads to fun,smiles,hugs and kisses..and most importantly,unconditional love.

Love nis.

2007-10-08T01:36:00.000+08:00

birthday post for elfie up!

where ye confidence

2007-10-08T01:29:00.000+08:00

where ye confidence

I shouldn't be so hard on him.
I shouldn't be so hard on me..

I shouldn't be so awfully hard on both of us.

bdae:mark

2007-10-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

Eating pomelo now reminds me of something that goes with it.Mooncakes..which I've yet to savour one of baked skin and lotus filling with yolk.Are they still sold?

happy 19th birthday,markychoo
(sucha glam picture)

mark says:
GILA
mark says:
shy le.
mark says:
thanks man
mark says:
and btw i wanted to thank you for the other day. haha. was kinda shy la
mark says:
hha
nis says:
haha
nis says
no prob

SHY MY FOOT AH YOU.
Anyway,I know we aren't as high class as your ACS friends but I hope you had fun that day.You know that no matter how sotong you are,we still love you.Hoho.

bdae:jay

2007-10-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

happy birthday,jay!

Despite being officially 20 now,you hardly have anything to worry other than your FYP.Most people have the impression that I'm still the fee-do-phile (sp?) because they say you look younger than me,to which I say..WHAT NONSENSE!

I do hope you were a happy bunny today,that you reallyreallyreally liked the wallet as much as I did and not because it had the words "River Island" inscribed on it.And the whole letting-you-thrash-me in pool and Literati today,was just part of the present as well:)

This cina minah loves you,mat.

FYI/ This is a belated birthday post (birthday is 5oct).
PS/ To my HLM kids,thank you for turning up (reference of event: MJ or Jon).Loves you all.

bdae:elfie

2007-10-01T03:00:00.000+08:00

happy birthday,elfie!
Elfie bacin..

I'm so sorry this wasn't up earlier.But it's up now and you know that it's because gua sayang same lu kan?

Anyway I hope you had a fantastic time on your 18th birthday,but an even more fantabulastic of a time with us that day:) Pray that your ear won't bleed from all the bitching from the makcik okay?HAHA.

Love muchos.

the boomboom boys

2007-09-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

the boomboom boys

Boomboom boys,thank you for turning up just now because I have missed you idiots' presence.We should do all that more often,with more scrumptious food.Someone else to do the next outing please?

Fahms and Mat,
meet up soon please.

Fadzil,
I want peeektures!

shaz bdae

2007-09-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

It's that time of September again but now you're more than just sweet and sassy,you're legal.I'd said that I would pop open the champagne last year but it's the holy month and I don't drink..so that's pretty much on your own time,own target ah.

May there be more of everything for you this year,love.
I hope you have a fiesta of a time.

Love,Nis.

i give a fuck too much

2007-09-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

i give a fuck too much

Just one stick and they're a goner.They couldn't wait for the hours to tick itself away,no matter how many people have told them and they've heard how many people say that time flies.It's just too difficult ain't it.

Well if my 50odd mother could work her butt off running and pushing patient from one theatre to another and still fast,then I can't see why you can't.All of you,I'm talking about all of you.I already know that I sound like a mother prick but it's only because I give a flying fuck,that's why.

So yes..
YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF.

all's fun in fridges

2007-09-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

all's fun in fridges

nis says:
anyway i hope i'll see your face and tummy(:
mark says:
no more tummy..how?
nis says:
face only also can
nis says:
haha
nis says:
ACTION SIAH...
mark says:
LOL
mark says:
GGXX
nis says:
you wait..
nis says:
you just wait
mark says:
WAITINGGG
nis says:
MARK CHOO..I SLAP YOU AH!
mark says:
slaps slaps haha

Malay say "perangai",MarkChoo.
TSK.

How is it that I'm being tormented and bullied by people in reality and the virtual.Like just now at work (Liat Towers,this time round) when the boys decided that it would be a nice day to be Ashton Kutcher's.One of them hid in the huge fridge of LT all hooded,whilst the rest told me that there were milk cartons to be arranged.Sure I was suprised,but they all fully know that I was counting down the minutes to break fast.

And all this in good name to hear me squeal.
Classic la.

But being with them was such awful fun that it was almost sinful.Which proves that you have more fun with boys than with girls and darling,the keyword here is "more" and shopping is a whole gratifying thing on its own.

Sigh.
Makes me miss my favourite people.

TAGS/
jonM: Yes there is.It's called decaf:)
shaz: I read the post too..I didn't know it was so em simple and sweet.HEH
malyna: You'd still be ms.nice even after I wake you up from your beauty sleep?SURE ANOT

tile-boogled mind

2007-09-27T01:21:00.000+08:00

tile-boogled mind

Lesson:
This is the only thing that you share with your gf/bf's sibling..
Nothing.

Me and my stupid socialising antics.TSK.
(notice it's not called 'skills',in this case)

It's those nights that you just want to hear pat-on-your-back nothings just because you feel like crap but jolly well know you wouldn't be getting any,because your bf's down with a headache and is pretty much as asleep as a log right now.Thought of calling the makcik but was too very much afraid of the consequences,if she were to be awaken by my text/call.

Aw shucks.
Everyone pray that I will have plenty of shut-eyes and that I will dream about rainbows and ponies,if not Richard Gere or Keeanu (however he's name's spelt) Reeves.I'll make myself believe of how torturous work would be later,if I don't get 12hours of sleep.

So sleep aplenty!
I'm coming,Winnie the Pooh.

in the duvet

2007-09-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

in the duvet

I have money now.Where are all the pretty clothes online?!
(Okay technically mine because they're in my bank,
but it's Mummy's because she deposited it in..for emergency)

It's 2-ish but I really fell like sleeping again but I'm supposed to bathe right now because I'm to meet Raz at raffles at 5pm.Don't want to be late and have him "pretend" he's not annoyed when he clearly is.

So many outings this and next week.
I'll get to see all my favourite people..YAY!

Could you tell that I was lazy to update?:P

if that's what rocks your boat

2007-09-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

if that's what rocks your boat

Sav and her hippy statements.
Heh.

My legs are sore from work but my brain's still generating every damn detail and info around me.Being deprived of sleep then having to go to work for a stretch of 8hours is no mean feat.But it's ironic because I'm still ~~quite~~ extremely jumpy in my action and extra-vextra specially in speech.

It all acted up before my latte,so that rules out the shot and I don't think one does anything AT ALL (unless it's Jon who wants the coffe flavour but doesn't want the coffee :D).But as ironic as it sounds,I reckon it's my lack of shut-eye for all the fast-talking-hyper-jumpy shit.

Literati will be a sinch later.
Baby,you're going down.

Speaking of which..
EVERYONE SHOULD GO PLAY LITERATI ON YAHOO.COM BECAUSE IT'S FUN LIKE SCRABBLE AND WORDS LIKE "xi" CAN BE A WORD ACCORDING TO DICTIONARY.COM AND ACTUALLY THERE'S NOTHING FANCY-SCHMANSY OR WHY THE HOO-HAA FOR IT ALL AND WELL..

It's just my moment of high.
It's acting up.Heh:)

just you and me today

2007-09-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

just you and me today

Every night there's a voice I hear,
soothing me to sleep.
Every morning I wake up,

from dreams of you that go so deep.

So many times I doubt and ponder,
that it seems that's the only thing I've got.
So many things I accuse and say,
but you're there reassuring my every thought.

It makes me wonder,
how long you'll stay.
Because we all know,
of my tendency to drive people away.

It's a little too early to say,
that I want to have my babies with you.
But there's something I'm pretty sure about..
Is that I love you.

Thanks for everything,babe.
This one's for you.

personality play

2007-09-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

personality play

This is only for your sake,MJ

List out ur top 5 birthday presents u wish for:

- To be alive and still kicking (even though I'm aged one year longer)
- To be able to spend with my love ones
- Loads of love (you save the best for the last right?)

Sure I'd want more clothes and all that,but these are what's important.
Really.

1. The person who tagged you is:
Loh Ming Jie aka MJ

2. Your relationship with him/her:
bitching partner in poly (along with Siti Pantat TAN)

3. Your impression of him/her:
First impression right?Quiet.
BUT I TAKE THAT BACK.

4. The most memorable thing she/he's done (with) for you:
Done all the photocopying when I was late,and when everyone else was too lazy.

5. The most memorable words that he/she said to you:
"UGH.WALAU EH.YOU AHHH!"*along with dramatic face expressions*
It happens after GZ still doesn't get what's going on,even after much explaination from MJ.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
Nothing.
It just means he's got good taste.ROFL

7. If he/she's your lover what he/she has to improve on:
Less screaming,because it tops me and Ina combined.

8. If he/she's becomes your enemy now you will:
Be friends again,since we're all addicted to each other.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, reason is:
He's very smart and I'm a jealous whore.

10. The most desired thing you would like him/her to do now:
To talk it out with people who you know cares about you because somehow,that will pay off.
This I know very well..

11. Your overall impression of him/her:
You know he'll always be there,no matter what.

12. How do you think people around you feel about you:
Annoyed,but still happy.HEH

13. The character you love about yourself:
I make the most sense at the oddest of times.

14. On the contrary, what character you hate about yourself:
Being such a wuss when PMS pays a visit.

15. The most ideal person I would like to be:
No one,really.Because there are times when we wish we aren't good enough and we want to be like someone else,but really..we're good just being who we are.

16. For the people who cared and liked you, say something to them:
It's been nice having you been part of my life.Thank you.

17. Pass this to 5 people you wish to know more about you (no back tagging):
1) Shazawani Begum
2) Noorhafeeza Yusof
3) Ahmad Kamil
4) Muhammad Farhan Zulkifli
5) Muhammad Noorrazmy

nothing in my shopping bag

2007-09-19T12:53:00.000+08:00

nothing in my shopping bag

I think now I have more links to shopping than to humans.

the perfectionist she is

2007-09-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

the perfectionist she is

What has been done should not have been done
and what was to be done has yet to be done.

The former would be clearing out and organising both of Mum's wardrobes (yeap,you read right) and the latter would very well be..the rest of the house.The attention especially goes to MY room.

The only reason why I started on hers is so that she'd be constricted to a whole space for her to utilise,because I absolutely detest how her things are cluttered in every corner of the house.If seperating her work clothes and her other dressy ones wasn't enough,I color-coordinated them.

I amaze myself sometimes.

Then I gave her a whole speech about her having to coordinate her stuff more and to buy those boxes from Ikea to organise everything else and to watch what color clothes she buys the next time she's out shopping because she already has so many (some have yet to be worn).AND to make sure that she must maintain all that.

To which she replies: "Well I used to be like that."
How apt,mother.

More cleaning to be done tomorrow *sigh*
(Shaz will absolutely love the whole Bree persona.)

EDIT/ You guys..I realised I've yet to post up pictures of my Beijing trip.So very overdued pictures.

money and dresses

2007-09-18T15:17:00.000+08:00

money and dresses

This would cost me 28sgd (incl. postage).

This would cost me 30sgd (not incl. postage).
With that amount of money spent on the gray crocheted top,I could pretty much get a dress+accessories and still have money left for Old Chang Kee.

But I wouldn't sound so sour,if I had money.UGH.

Mummy just called and said she was going for facial,then she asked whether I wanted to go shopping.Of course I do!But I casually told her that I was going to be cleaning my room (with the mess from their things).

Either because she wants to and doesn't want to be stuck in the midst of Bedok alone,or she's taunting me because she knows how broke I am.She's good,isn't she?

I just saw 'Best Dressed' and 'Worst Dressed' of the Emmy's on MSN.com and then I saw Vanessa Williams,on one of the worst dressed if you're wondering.But she sings beautifully and it makes me wonder whether she's such a bitchy gold-digging diva,like how she plays 'Wilhelmina Slater' in Ugly Betty.

Off to the dungeon of horrendous vintage.
(It wasn't necessary.I know:D)

picture credits: theLadieshouse,tracyeinny

sunkissed face

2007-09-17T14:17:00.000+08:00

sunkissed face

You think I could loan money from the bank?They'd ask the reason right.I know,but if I put up my famous cutesy mouse voice and batt me eyelids..I could possibly get enough money (or more) to go on a shopping spree right?

Right?
Okay no.

Well,is there anyone out there who is financially stable and generous enough to loan me some money for me to go on a shopping spree?I need to buy myself these dresses.I promise I'll pay you back when my pay comes in on the 7Oct..

No?
Okay FINE.

Let them,let them imagine..
What it'd be like to be up in the clouds.

{p/s} Thank you for the chat yesterday,Mr anonymous.
{p/ss} No baby,he's no scandal.Just a good friend..And I can't stand the fact that I can't see you because we're both broke.I want to pinch and strangle you before hugging and kissing you many times over.

I want to go shopping la!

you and me on cloud9

2007-09-16T17:04:00.000+08:00

you and me on cloud9

PMS have got to be the queen of all my enemies.All it does is make me think of how every guy's like Ben (such a bastard he was,at least then) and my own mind's credibility's being doubted.Stupid 'thing' gets to me monthly.

So then my two lovelies,Shaz and Sav,suddenly *poofs* appears online and saves the day.Nana can sure give some pep talk about love and shitnizit,the miracle of having a friend who's so dreamy.They obviously saved me from my nonsense.

Then to further shove the ugly thoughts deep down some corner,I did this..

I know it's not really much compared to the people who've got AD for DGA and all,but I hope you guys like it.I promised pictures would be up,didn't I?I love you guys,thanks again for the chalet:)

Time has passed so fast..People come and people go.

But with every of these entrances and departures,you'd always learn something.I've had so many friends who've come and gone,those who've seen me cry,some seen me sing at the top of my lungs and others who've stucked by me all these while.God,I've missed you all.

Whether we're no longer friends,just acquiantances,still friends,best friends,ex-es or bf..
Thank you,for having been part of my life and for letting me been part of yours.
Love,Nis <3

read my words

2007-09-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

read my words

"Forward this or you'll have 13years of bad luck."

To make it clear to everyone,I HATE ABHOR LOATHE CHAIN LETTERS.DO NOT FUCKING SEND ME ANY FUCKING CHAIN LETTER.If I get all suay for 13years,then it's because it's fated to be that way.Not because of some stupid chain mail that I didn't send out when I still had raging hormones.

I want to kidnap this boy and pinch his chubby chubby cheeks and squeeze him like you would a cute little stuffed teddy bear.So geram.

Ugh.My body's begging me to sleep.

why do we care

2007-09-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

why do we care

The results..my results.Sure they're not as impressive as yours,but I'm sure you'd still like to know.Don't you?

APPRECIATING LITERARY WORKS - B
GLOBAL CITIES - B
PLANT BIOCHEMISRTY & PHYSIOLOGY - C+
PLANT PATHOLOGY & ENTOMOLOGY - C
PLANTING AND MAINTENANCE - B
STRUC DRAWING & CA DESIGN - B+

GPA=2.7609

DAMN.
The more reason for Raz to poke fun at me.All he had to say was a "Hey,at least you didn't get a D" to comfort me and then supposingly allow me to slip into oblivion to his 2 A's and 3.0 GPA.

Tell me again why I love you x)

So third day of Ramadan have passed,if not it's the 15th day of September for the rest of you.I hope all of you have not been having a monotonous holiday and have been the pink of health and and have not been dampened by the dreary results *ahemahem*.

My apologies if this all bore you.
I'm bored,boring and no one's home.

I fell like scoffing down all the glorious food that I saw at Geylang.
I shall go eateateat now.

he says

2007-09-14T02:34:00.000+08:00

he says

Baby wants me to tell everyone that he's not sick of my face (:

tickled toes

2007-09-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

tickled toes

You know,I'm pretty sure you wouldn't be sucha bitch if I had to pay you for every single time I sign in.Exactly what would it take to be able to sign in without having to refresh the page for a million time?

Anyway,

A GOOD RAMADAN TO ALL MUSLIMS
And may you be able to finish this holy month with happiness and blessing from Allah swt

On another lazy note of mine,I haven't done much the past few days.Most of which is of no value anyway(monetary/spiritual/intelligence).

in random order,I have:

1) finished all my days of fasting that I have owed for the past year (Alhamdullilah)
2) bumped into Danial Tan yesterday at Jurong Point (no prizes for why I was all the way on the other side)
3) done a proposal for a pay-raise (I wouldn't if it hadn't been compulsory)
4) seen baby's face for the past 3days (and can conclude that he is absolutely sick of me)
5) watched The Reaping (which had cost me a night's worth of sleep)

And is completely broke.
If 5dollars in my savings isn't broke,then I don't know what is.Thankfully,dinner will be (unofficially) on mummy for the next 30days.But I still have the feeling that I'd be doing some borrowing in the month of October (coughcough fuad elfie BABY and markchoo coughcough).

I just remembered that the results are tmr.
Please God..let me have GPA=3.0 (to beat baby).Heh.

Speaking of that pantat,he thinks it's funny to give miss calls and not pick up when I call back afterwards.So darling,this is my (cute) revenge.

Goodnight,my darlings.

mind to brain: hello,anyone in there

2007-09-08T22:17:00.000+08:00

mind to brain: hello,anyone in there

You know you're quite the brain-dead..when you end up going home from work in your shoes(and only realising midway home,that you didn't change into your slips).

And puberty,you cheebye.
Because of you I now have a gazillion zits and ugly scars and big fucking tits that has eventually led to my mind into lapses of insecurity.
Cheebye ah you.

Ugh.I'm gonna lie down now.
(sniffle sniffle)

a little love goes miles miles away

2007-09-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

a little love goes miles miles away

Box of Kleenex in front of me,along with a pile of (er.) damp and used tissue.Apparently the amount of ply-s go a long way,especially when you have an awfully runny nose like I do right now.

Don't know whether it's the lack of sleep,the excess of junk/barbecued food or both..but for some reason,my nose is constantly dripping of the transparent liquid.Stop it eh!And and and (this is interesting..can you feel it -__-) there's a love-bite on my leg.Actually no,it's a mosquito bite but with color of a love bite.Not sure why it's so blood-red.

Eh cb la.
That's the 1372981902347th tissue.

Anyway..

CHALET WAS GEREK AH!

Thank you loves for making it all happen.For planning,for sponsoring,for cooking the food,for buying the food..and most importantly,for the company:)

Pictures up soon!!

And it looks like the box will be my companion tonight.

go cut your balls la

2007-09-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

go cut your balls la

Fucking stupid uncle wouldn't let us go up the last train just because.So there we were at the concourse hearing the announcement,"The last train to Boon Lay is departing.Please board now."

Ah fuck you ah.

slow motion for me

2007-09-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

slow motion for me

(Pic credits: tracyeinny,jumpingaway)

Just for my own convience.

One top all of the above is a 29dollar tunic from Giordano which I pray someone will secretly buy for me,even without me hinting and saying that I don't fancy the darn thing (OH HI BABY).Why oh why do all the good stuff surface when I hardly have money to throw.

At least,I only have enough money to throw on glorious FOOD.Anyone going for some makansutra please bring me along okay.I had sambal ikan pari and satay at Lau Pa Sat the other..One word,orgasm!

I think there'll be more good food on Tues.
HELLO CHALET!

like tape to my mouth

2007-08-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

like tape to my mouth;

If only I had those machines that help people to breathe.At least then,I'd be able to overcome the aftermath of massive crying.

541 and counting

2007-08-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

541 and counting

Ashes in the toilet,ashes in the sink,ashes everywhere.I'd like to blame the 7th month too but it's actually my brother.As soon as the folks not around,he goes all smoke machine.I don't mind,really..except that I CANNOT BLOODY BREATHE PROPERLY AFTER HE DOES THAT.Stupid boy.

I've been online(window) shopping for the past 2hours and I've found nothing to my fancy.I guess it'll never beat actually getting down to the malls and ransacking through every sale.

But I went out with the boy the other day and only managed to come home (sadly),with a brown skinny belt from FEP.Couldn't find shoes that I could fall in love with.Speaking of shoes..

WHAT IS UP WITH PIGSKIN LINING?

Is it a bloody fad that I'm apparently unaware of that has stores that I frequent having shoes made of them?I know I'm being a bloody prick of a pussy but you can't blame me can you.Mum encouraged me to buy Hush Puppies because they no longer do babi skin,but it's just too bad that they hardly have nice shoes.

I need a pair of nice,comfy shoes.
So sue me,for sounding so bratty.

my short vacation to joy land

2007-08-28T02:50:00.000+08:00

my short vacation to joy land

Kegan's taste of music is fab.
And kids never fail to amaze me.

PS/ I need to go for some ear-candling soon.

this will go on forever

2007-08-27T16:29:00.000+08:00

this will go on forever

"So is he your best friend or your matair?"

Exactly what difference would it make,mother.You're going to categorise both under the same space (in that head of yours) anyway.So it wouldn't matter to what my answer would be because you've already gave the answer to your own question.

I love you.

But I do hate how there isn't the word "platonic" in your dictionary.Yes I know what the Al-Quran says,but sometimes I am just JUST friends with these boys and am not in a relationship with them.You don't have to worry for these boys because in their eyes,I have an imaginary dick as well.

I won't be suprise if you're reading this very sentence I'm typing,since it won't be your first.LJ anyone?Sucks when you share the computer with your parents.

Now since you've seen "sensual" pictures of me (that picture where my face was against Raz's cheek and was hardly an affectionate kiss; that's what she calls 'em),I have to now send them all to Photobucket just so I can still feel as if I still have my little sense of privacy.

Someone say something to make me feel better.Ugh.
Oh time to clear History.

H for holidays

2007-08-24T17:58:00.000+08:00

H for holidays

LOCATION : xxxxxx
DATE : 3, 4 and 5 September 2007
WHAT TO BRING : yourself and whatever you need to bring to change into and whatever else lah you want!

BBQ will be on the 4th so its best if all of you could be present for it!so dont give stupid reasons like cannot attend due to money matters because everything is free. -____-"

3rd Sept 07

MEETING TIME : 12PM
PLACE : xxxxx
p/s: please bring your own money because food will be on individual for this day.

so we got all the arrangements confirmed except for the entertainment part which is up to you guys but report to entertainment IC, CHANNURULNISA. haha =p food list is attached, if anything is missing from the list or you want to add anything, inform MJ. =D

-

Then they thrash that brain-hackling of a chore to me.Nonetheless I sayang them all very much and cannot wait for September to come.As quoted by the Makcik,"excited la sialll".
(Kudos to MJ and Ina; Special thanks to Jon's mum and Fie)

Have have HAVE TO fully utilise this holiday,since half would be consumed by the fasting month (not that it's a bad thing seeing how I have been quite a bad girl,in need of quite an amount of soul-cleansing.)

BUT it's the first day and I'm still stucked home,having next to nothing in stomach.Shaz did call though,asking me out for coffee along with Kegan.But in no way am I going to play lampost (I'm predicting that she's gonna have her hands around my neck for this).

The boy's probably out with his friends,finally celebrating the last day of exams.Calling him would only label me as that prick of a gf who's constantly breathing down his neck (don't bluff,I know some of you would think so),not that he minds and no one's going to be home because they're out with their friends.

I no friends ah?Bummer.
I think I'll call MacDelivery.

G LA

2007-08-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

G LA

PPE was..manageable.After that,Me and MJ then somehow managed to cramp a teenyweeny itcybitcy yellowdot of biochem for the next 3hours or so.There goes my hopes of having to reach 3.0 GPA.

So many chapters to cover,but I'm..lazy.
Awfully lazy.

sour puss

2007-08-21T19:09:00.000+08:00

sour puss

Why are the words on my screen all in-your-face?As if someone's magnified them by a 100.

Yes love,I'm home early today.In fact I was already home by 5pm because the boy needed rest and I figured I should to,except I didn't because there was the 360^o surround-sound of construction.

Contemplated on going to ecp but thought better of it,for fear of breakdown and crying from the soothing sound of the waves crashing and going.And also because I really don't want to spend any more money than I already have.Wanted to go down for delicious and cheap (but $2 is hardly cheap when you're broke) nasi lemak,but nvm.Say hello maggi..

Plus,daddy just went out for idunnowhat and won't be home till late.So just me and the house now.

Sucks when you're broke.
How awful *cursecurseswearswear*

sucha nice wake up call

2007-08-20T04:06:00.000+08:00

sucha nice wake up call

Caffeine is suchsuchsuch a blessing because it has helped me endure about 3hours of studying the bloody ppe which consisted about everything in the world like fungi and pyruvates eh no that's from biochem but it had bacteria and koch postulate gram staining koh test abiotic factors and some other stuff that no one else should give a flying hoots and need not know except us hlm students and ya.

(i need to sleep now because ive to wake up and spare about 5winks to wake J up and then really wake up early to meet him after his paper to go jam my brain yet again also because i suddenly think that sp is quite a conducive place to study with all the study rooms and benches and fantastic air circulation<-i dunno where this came from)

I felt like writing like that.

Shall go continue reading how Holly goes about life without Gerry.

Ah,I likeloveadore caffeine.

go shove your thrash up your ass

2007-08-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

go shove your thrash up your ass

How the whole shit about insects and fungi and shit and other yadas are ever going to get inside my brain is a question on its own.I fear for the non-existance of brain cells for Biochem,after I'm done with PPE on Wed.

Mum's back.YAY.
(I really am glad.Really la.)

But fuck.
They're back screaming inches away from me,at me.Warna 94.2FM is blasting loudly in the kitchen,which means now I have to lock in my fucking room to study and try try try awfully hard at being deaf to all that jiwang.

It's going to be a long night and this is so full of rage.
That's why no one bothers tagging.
I don't blame you.

birthday

2007-08-19T02:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HOSS!

Goofy picture I know.
That's why it's up :)

wait for me by the bay

2007-08-17T19:10:00.000+08:00

wait for me by the bay

Thank God it rained.

Weather was perfect enough to have rocked me to the land of princesses and ponies.The other perfect thing was having to hear Mama's voice,then wishing she was around for me to cradle to.

Fuck the bloody hormones la.I've been crying mad for the past few days and it's annoying the shit out of me.My dear boy,I wonder how you do it and am still quite suprised that you've not yet left me.He must think he's got some psycho gf (not that he'll be the first the think so).GAH.

Can somebody please turn back time already?I want to watch vroom-vrooms,while I sit excited in my pram.And there'll be this old man pushing me.He's laughing from babbling some nonsense,which I could hardly make out.Ah vell.

And I'm on a diet now.
One word.Broke.

kill you words

2007-08-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

kill you words

mĵ♂™ the emo-king! [okay,i prefer paraquat. SPRAY ME!!] says:
lol
mĵ♂™ the emo-king! [okay,i prefer paraquat. SPRAY ME!!] says:
str8 and compound..
mĵ♂™ the emo-king! [okay,i prefer paraquat. SPRAY ME!!] says:
u know wad ben said?
mĵ♂™ the emo-king! [okay,i prefer paraquat. SPRAY ME!!] says:
he said..so easy!!
mĵ♂™ the emo-king! [okay,i prefer paraquat. SPRAY ME!!] says:
unless u say the compound is GAY

I've just got this to say to you Ben: -__-"

One another post-it..
With every turn of Cecilia Arhen's "PS I love you",I'd wet the earth with one more drop of tear.Yes,she's one heck of a bloody good author who twists every nerve that send your brain into an emo fit.But no,it's not just because of that alone.

Curse these bloody female hormones.They'd soon be the death of me I tell you,what with all the crying for the most minute of issues (and fiction,blooody fiction ya know).Oh and all the mugging which I can't seem to digest.

WHAT IS GOING ON.

rehab

2007-08-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

rehab

Today,I've lost count of the many trips to the loo.
And I pray that it's just all the espresso and green tea earlier.
(not anything else)

I feel absolutely out of my soul now.
Why why why.

Ohhh my tummy's grumpy now.
SHITTTTTTTT.

private emotion

2007-08-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

private emotion

I wish for times for you to open up to me,like how I do with you.Just so you know that I care for you,that I'm here for you.To show you that I'm not selfish or self-centered of any sort.

You listen to every word I say.

No matter how crazy,no matter how irrelevant,no matter how stupid they seem (now that I think of it).How you look at me with comforting eyes and how you listen with such patience.And I'll probably never understand why..or maybe I just choose not to.Heh.

And this is for you,manjeY
(I feel extra pretty today.Inside out.)

EDIT/ Mummy's going to Melbourne..with her friend and without me.Eyer.

our royal highness

2007-08-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

our royal highness

When I passed by her Highness at Kallang today,there was this slight pang of sadness.Even though she'll be back with a brand new look,it just somehow..would never be the same again.Good memories,what good memories.

sidetrack: The aunties and uncles doing the performance of tai qi,silat and whatnot look awfully cute doing them.hahaha.

TV: (Shows video clip of the kampong days)
Mum: Eh mama las time like that..Adik look!Heh.
Dad: Ah ma last time work like that..you see you see.
Abang: Every year they show same thing,every year you all excited.
(of which my brother and I started laughing)

Boy am I glad to be home.
The week's been kinda tough.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY all.

just one more lie

2007-08-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

just one more lie

Be it right or wrong,
I'll still love you.

pinkie promise

2007-08-04T12:34:00.000+08:00

pinkie promise

Me: (something something) punani!
Jon: That's a name right? (with such innocence in eyes)
Me,MJ,Ina: ROFL

Joke of yesterday.

Yesterday was sucha joy..despite the fact that we were in school for HLM day (don't ask don't ask),for a mere hour.Then it was IKEA,which never fails to make mother and me spend money on the littlest of stuff.Like how important can a soap dish really be?

Scout for a replacement for my slippers (think: your jamban slippers) of which to no avail,but instead led me into almost touching some pigskin lining crap from Marie Claire at Bata.That itself made me have mild paranoia.-__-"

Hello?!How the fuck would anyone be very much aware that it's pigskin,when your damn sticker is as long as my fingernail.And unless your name's in Guinness World of Record for "Longest kept fingernails",then yes the sticker is that puny.

"I'm a guy,I don't know what it feels like to be used..but I can imagine."

See how well they know.But the night ended on a smiley note.
Even with me tearing and merajuk -ing at some point of time.
(Let's just put it that boys can sometimes be such idiots.)

walk me home

2007-08-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

baby,walk me home

it's the little things that count.

this is why we're hot

2007-08-02T19:04:00.000+08:00

this is why we're hot

WHOOPEEDOO.
WE'VE GOT ENTO OFF OUR BACKS!!FINALLY:)

(At least..it's official for me and the Makcik.The boys still want to collect some more,em stuff.shrugs)

Now to finish my report..
Whilst waiting for a text from that boy.

view from the backseat

2007-08-01T15:21:00.000+08:00

view from the backseat

With my shoulders tight,my stomach knotted and this feeling of uncertainty and beyond..

I just want to down an Iced Caramel Macchiato badly.

Now.

(Babe thought my previous poem was a cut&paste,something all too familiar.Makes me feel like as if spilling guts and soul don't count any more.Ouch.)

pricked by your oblivion

2007-07-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

pricked by your oblivion

There you go again,stuffing yourself with all the carbos and proteins.Two freaking bowls of chicken rice,all gulped down like water.I feel lightheaded now,very light.

I don't wish to vomit.
PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME VOMIT.

You guys should watch "Les Choristes" by Christophe Barratier.It's probably one of the most inspirational movie I've ever seen,what with the choir boys singing wonderfully composed melodies.

I need to rest.
Rest aplenty.

time after time

2007-07-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

time after time

Across the shadowed green meadow,
I lay in wait.
Till the dawn breaks
and my lover a breath away.

We'll then dance amongst the stars;
Shiny as they are,
blessing us with specks of stardust
of love and more.

And when the time comes,
it'll all stop and fade.
But for what it's worth,
it was almost like heaven..so,pretty.

shit happens

2007-07-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

shit happens

Probably the last time I'm ever going to have the Murtabak Chicken at Zam zam's.Or at least before I head home,a trip to the toilet for some massive emptying of the bowels.

Bloody hell.

And work later.
Hopefully that won't be much of a shit either.

EDIT/ This is so funny.ROFL

rainbow love

2007-07-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

rainbow love

There was an evaluation form to be filled this morning,on our Ento lecturer.She sucks (period).Mr Saiful has my sympathy,where without him..the whole cohort would probably get retained because of that one module.He shortened the field trip today as well,which is why he's our favourite.Lame,but still favourite.

Afterwards was lunch @ LJS,where we did what we do best.

1) Everyone in,GZ out 2) Everyone in,Ina's boobs in 3) GZ gave up,being at the back

Elfie and Ina then went to the toilet..but.

1) they got me a cake! 2) an ice cream cake,from swensens:) 3) yes,i had difficulty

clockwise (from extreme left): MJ,GZ,Elfie,Ben,Mark,Ina,me,Jonathan
not in picture: Iqbal and Id

What I did to deserve friends like these,I don't know.I love them to bits and pieces and appreciate every damn thing that they've done (paper printing/photocopying,helping with autocad,catching of stupid bugs,sharing of movies and food etc) and no words could amount as to how much I do.Thank you God,for having me met them.

The cookies and cream was scrumptiously good,it being my third cake (first 2 from feez; 1 slice of marble cheesecake and a choc cupcake).Again,thank you loves.

That's a cherry stalk knot,which I managed to tie solely with my tongue.
According to Ina's friend,that's suppose to mean that you're a good kisser.
I'd have to agree:)

Shaz and Sav:
I'm sorry for canceling today,and still not have gotten down to spending a birthday's day with you two yet.Promise we'll meet up soon.

-

Baby,today marks another chapter

don't matter,'cos i got you

2007-07-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

don't matter,'cos i got you

My thanks to all for the wishes.The gang for their little celebrat-y gestures.To my family,thank you for the dinner and for amusing me in such a way that no one else would ever (my brother's slipper broke today!haha).And especially,my bfs for the snippets of suprises they had in store.Now I'm stocked with everything chocolate-y.Yes,thank you to you as well.

I love you all.
Always.

friends forever

2007-07-24T22:16:00.000+08:00

friends forever

I can't thank you guys enough.
Love,always :)

EDIT/ I just saw Ina's blog.What can I say?"Great minds think alike."

through the mosaic glass

2007-07-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

through the mosaic glass

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY FARHAN!

Yes,it' awfully late:(
(Too many babies in July)

And I freaking fell today.

I don't know how tar could possibly turn into oil,but it did today.Wearing a pair of pretty worn-out slippers,doesn't help either ya know.Someone remind me to buy a new pair,please.

Other than that,my ex called.

He probably just wanted to hear of how I'm still not attached,then gloating and laughing in my bloody ear.But being the ignorant and hopeless romantic that I am,I'd like to think that he called..because a) he really cared as to whether I was dead/alive/single/attached or b) he missed me and wished so much that his girlfriend was like me.

Yeap,he's atttached.

ALW's gonna be held in the midst of fishmongers and bargain-hunting aunties tomorrow.How that's inspiration for a short story,baffles me.I think it's only because Jackie Teo can relate to the people there.Heh:)

(I'm so tired and lazy to watch Ugly Betty.)

'little brother luck'

2007-07-21T21:41:00.000+08:00

'little brother' luck

Double cheeseburger and blueberry bagel.

That's all it was since morning,I might as well go on a damn diet la.I hate how periods can get me so frustrated sometimes,how it spoils my love affair with food.

And I miss you.
(Stupid period.)

everything falls back into place,naturally

2007-07-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

everything falls back into place,naturally

Like she never left for the States in the first place.We're all at Shaz's; Nana's persuading Jared to come over for dinner/supper,while me is..well,here(:

Shaz's sis is singing Fergie's "Big Girls Don't Cry".
How cute.

rockafella

2007-07-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

rockafella

How you manage not to feel insulted/used/lousy/(all of the above) is beyond me.Because if the boy that I'm head over heels with is muttering and wailing about some other bitch,I would go berserk.Like really.

You really do love me,don't you.

they say friends,we say sisters

2007-07-21T01:43:00.000+08:00

they say friends,we say sisters

Feez:
I met her today at the flight of stairs,outside her house.Except there wasn't any masak-masak,or stealing of 'utensils and food' going around.Just comfy-chatting.Hope you liked the Caramel Macchiato (and I'm sorry I didn't call/text when I got home).

Shaz:
I didn't see her,but I heard her voice.Good enough,seeing how we haven't met for donkey years.It wasn't the usual uno minute thing,where one of us would usually have to rush off somewhere.

I love you two <3

truth; another lie

2007-07-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

truth; another lie

Why do you always have to torture yourself like that?

Stop all this crap about how you've found the wrong person,how you wish you won't so tangled up in this mess,how you want to turn back time and not have to make a fucking decision.Stop asking me how the guy/s are different from you,when you already know the answer to that.

You really wanna know?
(FUCK.I hope you read this.)

No one would be able to match up to you.

And I feel fucking sorry for myself,to have allowed you burrow through my heart and never had the fucking decency to cover it back up.What's even more pathetic is justifying my every tear and praying that tomorrow I won't be doing the same.You were the one who left,for fuck's sake.So why the fuck should I be the one crying and wishing that you would fucking leave her for me.

"We'll be okay."
HAH.

EDIT/ My brother just told me that my hair looks like shit.Yes,he shares the same sentiments as I do.That's why I'm off to the hairdresser (who uses this word anymore),as soon as my damn period finishes.

vanilla lattes and chocolates

2007-07-18T13:35:00.000+08:00

vanilla lattes and chocolates

That..and the best friends.
So near,yet so far.

not the easiest person to love

2007-07-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

not the easiest person to love

Two chapters of Biochem and already my brain's fried.Speaking of fried,I haven't had dinner and my stomach's growling.So for the sake of it all,I'll make this real quick.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CLARENCE LEOW!
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY HATTA TAHA!

(The few people who you would actually wanna have your eyes feast on.EH!I just realised that they were both prom kings,for their respective cohorts

I digress.Okay chill.

1) Clarence's birthday @ Wheelock's Fish &Co. yesterday
2) sinful Seafood platter (**I WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN FOR MY BIRTHDAY**)
3) finally saw my Melvyn Martin Chong.

yesh,they're all 1 point -> 3subpoints..boy,am i irrtating.

4) pay's gone (300++)
5) but another LIME flea market tomorrow!!
6) I wonder if I can borrow from Mummy......
7) Nana's going to be back in 7days
8) eh!there's a syarahan downstairs
9) i'm hungry la!and no one's home:(
10) Crap,I need to piss.Again.

OKAY BYE.

lovers or friends

2007-07-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

lovers or friends

110707.

There was something about it I didn't like.
And true enough,things fell apart.

where the remote takes me

2007-07-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

where the remote takes me

Is it blogger or is it me?I can't seem to fill in my title box,which is annoying when you've already got the habit of labeling your every post (why are your eyebrows raised?).Another annoying thing is having coughed air and saliva out,just so you'd properly breathe again.

Yes,it's been a couple of nights already.
Nyeh.

My main motive here..is actually to pass the 15mins till I plonk down my ass on the sofa.This whilst having me eyes set on all the intricate details of the victim and crime scene.I don't like the other versions,just Las Vegas please (it's more than the cabaret girls and Grissom's odd sense of humour).After that would be Criminal Minds.

I'm really considering going into forensics.

clouds above me head

2007-07-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

clouds above my head

Once bitten,twice shy.
What about thrice?

where's that zen aura

2007-07-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

where's that zen aura

TWO days of bloody outbreak.All it took was a plate of penang kway teow and afew hours behind on sleep.Bloody hell,TWO.Plus,whoever bloody said anything about fruits benefiting us in dietary fibre,ought to do his research again.It only left me days of gastic pangs and trouble shitting.

Double whammy.

And I needneedneed a boy who's good with his hands.
I'll leave that to your imagination.

cupid chokehold

2007-07-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

cupid chokehold

Today was a crazy whirlwind of emotions.From my face spelling out "dejected",or as Jon said it anyway,to stoning and emo then laughing mad like no tomorrow (sidetrack: eh it rhymes ah).And I ~~elegantly~~ fell off a damn chair just now,fault lying with my lazy bumbum.

Other than that,we did roleplay in Chitra's class.Which I now have to admit..isn't as bad as Mrs Choo,who teaches us Entomology.Just so you know,it's the study of insects.And if you're wondering what's the relation,then that makes you and everyone in class (that,or they're just ignorant).

She really needs a hearing aid.
Period.

-

Babe,

Thanks for accompanying me to dinner and insisting to send me home (which isn't exactly the shortest of distance from your place).But whatever happened today..

Please don't query.

Because I don't know; I'm unsure.It's happened over and over again,that I hardly know what's really true and what's just "routine".You're nice and that's really vague,but it's the best I can come up with right now.Trust is too much of a risk.

But for what it's worth,I enjoyed it.
Thank you.

Y Nis

laughter's the best medicine

2007-07-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

laughter's the best medicine

What could possibly be worse than cabbing to school,you say.It would have to be cabbing to school,during peak hours and via espressways with ERP.And that is what exactly happened this morning.My face was as black as charcoal,my classmates can justify for it.

Other than that and Chitra's lecture (which I've yet to digest),the day was all about being merry.This is how we spend our 3hr breaks..

After making our tummies happy,we buy more food.Then crash the studio,or any other room (preferably,with a projector).One of the guys plugs in his laptop/iPod,we choose what movie we want to watch..

Then sit back and relax.
(And boy,do we really relax.)

If disturbing others with the volume wasn't enough..we had all taken chairs to rest our feet and had laughed,like the room's been filled with laughing gas.Did I mention also the part where some of the movies just aren't "G-friendly"?

We ought to be slapped.NOT.
Blame the lecture from 9-11am,every Tuesday.

And whilst braiding the Makcik's hair in the bus,I found a..'bruising'.If it's one thing I learned today,is never tell Ben such a thing.He had casually announced it to everyone else.But god,was it hilarious:)

You know,I've found a new love.

Contemporary dance.
What I'd give,to dance like that.

OHHHHH.CSI TIME.

what's going on

2007-07-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

what's going on

Great.
I can't breathe properly.

repressive expression

2007-07-02T20:49:00.000+08:00

repressive expression

"Kesian anak mama.Kene belajar kat kitchen..but ape nak buat.Haven't buy study table eh."

Yup,my mum's cute like that (other than being shorter than me).Like she was refering,my closest form of comfort whilst studying is in the kitchen.Only because a) I do not have a study table and b) the only place to sit comfortably is at the dining table.

Ah vell.

So Jackie Teo gave us a test just now.

Just with the fact that "you may go as soon as you finish",I love her.And I'd hardly call it a test,really.It was quite self-expressive,with context to whatever we learnt earlier.A little tongue-in-cheek,references,personal encounters..voila.

-

{edit}

Why the fuck do I care so much.
WHY.

{/edit}

snippet sorrow

2007-07-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

snippet sorrow

It's the same damn thing over and over again.All's well when you don't call,but when you actually do..my eyes threaten to fill buckets.I'm running out of tears,so please press 'stop' already.

Too early for any mention of anything pertaining to my birthday (23days!),but already I want to wish for something.It's been said that if you say your wish,it wouldn't come true.Maybe I'd partly want that to happen,maybe.But right now,I wish..

There'd be someone else.

Fuck.

out without you

2007-06-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

out without you

Adilin Ismail,you're going to be thankful that you didn't go for SWOP.

Besides getting lost and wasting money for cab fare (I found out I only had to walk a block away),there wasn't much to shove and push for.There was a reason why people didn't want to wear,what they brought,anymore.I managed to get afew but ended up still emptying my pockets..at a flea market next door:)

Managed to get a dusty blue Old Navy tunic + brown vintage Dunhill belt for just 10bucks.I swear I heard the stuff chanting my name,so I'd bring them home.But I had to constantly replay the amount I have in my savings,to block out the chanting.

Seventeen mag's editor was selling her stuff there also.

And that lucky bitch is going to California.Sometimes it pays to have gone to another country to study,doesnt it.Before she went offline,she asked how things was between me and "the malay guy?with the glasses?".I'll put it simply..

"I'm simply too tired."

satis-fact-tiooon

2007-06-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

satis-fact-tiooon

Imagine being interupted from an awfully nice nap..

Then finding that your dear classmates aren't around,what worse with your limbs being sprawled across one of LSCT's platforms.Thank God there wasn't any drooling.Yes,my classmates bully me on a daily basis.

(Mark Choo,the next time I want to borrow your comfy duffel for napping..SAY NO.)

AND OMG.

I was on Power98 today.Entered the little "Drive by" sms contest and I got myself a $50 Kelly Rowland hamper.YAY YAY YAY.I'm sorry I sound like some mountain tortoise,but it's not every day that you get to win a freaking contest on radio.Well,have you?

God's been very kind.Alhamdullilah
And it shows.It rained right after Sebastian (the DJ) called and because of that,I wasn't able to go out with you either.Could be a sign..hmmm.

Make me safe.

till the water runs dry

2007-06-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

till the water runs dry

This is unbearable.
Craig David has the ability to make me tear.

(And obviously,the song bears significance.)

it's a girl thing

2007-06-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

it's a girl thing

"Therefore,my first rule in any relationship:
Keep your mouth shut.

You never had a past.You never dated.You never slept with a guy before.You think orgasm is a germ.You can barely locate your own sex organs,much less anybody else's.You think your G-spot is a chord on your piano.Get my drift?"

- "It's a girl thing (The Hilarious Truth About Women)
by Jan King

And this,my dear girls..
should be an oath on its own.

beautiful letdown

2007-06-27T14:51:00.000+08:00

beautiful letdown

AUTOCAD is boring.
I need chocolates.

Period.

so say we all

2007-06-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

so say we all

Who cares what "Your Horoscope" says about my compatibility with Leo males.They can be so charming,you'll end up falling in love with them anyway.But iran boy can only agree to this to a certain extent eh.

So it was ALW (appreciation of literary works) today..

The next 6weeks means that this HLM girl,will be right smacked in a river of FMS kids.For the first few moments after I stepped into class,made me realised what it was like again to be a loner.Jackie Teo (lecturer) was nice to make gesture some pep talk,but her best move was probably to split us in groups.

A woman probably in her mid-40s.Trendy but eccentric,with overly-threaded eyebrows.She's got this habit of ending her every sentence with,"Alright".And I don't know why she can't pronounce "problem" correctly (she says it as "pore-blem").Ironic eh?

And boy,getting along with mcm girls can be a chore on its own.No offence,but they (maybe not all) aren't the friendliest sort of people.BUT..I've to admit,FSV kids are cool.

By "cool"..I meant laid-back and friendly.They really don't start judging you,even though you've uttered something totally irrelevant to whatever's been mentioned.It was especially nice to be brought up to the 8th level of the block during break,whilst they chain-smoke their time away.

Another day tomorrow with the gang.
First up,fits of laughter.

thanks ah

2007-06-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

thanks ah

EH WTF.
I MISSED UGLY BETTY.

I swear Lucy Liu is the s.e.x

to infinity and beyond

2007-06-24T22:21:00.001+08:00

to infinity and beyond

Ever since when was a hard bed,suppose to actually be good for your back?SINCEBLOODYWHEN.But my mother still insisted buying anyhows,for the sake of me having one (just in time before the bloody GST hike).

Oh,I haven't told you guys.

My wardrobe's a spanking new 4-door,laminated with a black leather texture.The only ugly part about it is,my clothes having filled less than a 1/4 of it and that the other half act as store.Quite the bimbo statement that it is..but blame me not.

It's the people at work,I tell you.There's a biting frenzy going around and I've a dozen marks to prove it!Bullies.Plus,Philip's exuding this bimbotic aura to me because he thinks *puts up fake American accent* "it's loike sooo cool".HAH.But the love's around,yo.

WTF.
I think I should go sleeeeeeeep.

use and throw

2007-06-24T01:40:00.000+08:00

use and throw

Why we should just date and probably never get into a proper relationship,is because..

You'll never know when that boy who you thought liked you (he confessed actually),is just taking you for a ride.And by that,I meant literally as well.

Ya,I'll regret saying the above.
Later.

a clsse to perceptions

2007-06-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

a close to perceptions

Madly typing away at bf's laptop now.Yes,apparently S&W is a whole load of business and econs (and shit),that you very much need a laptop to hold everything together.You can tell I'm awfully sour about the whole laptop thing.Blame NP for thinkng that HLM students are any different from the others.

I'm thinking of going to Mt.Faber tomorrow,but I fear getting raped with the full moon up and the stars shining ever so brightly.I'm serious.There come times when I could want something so badly,I might just forsake something else for it..something precious.

This is not a rambling either.
You just have no light to what I just said.

nicest damn thing

2007-06-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

nicest damn thing

on the bf's webcam:)

me,shaz and vith

there's gotta be something for my soul

2007-06-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

there's gotta be something for my soul

All it took was fistfuls of Cadbury and I was a goner.First I was on this laughing rampage,then suddenly I took Shaz's ball-ster (blame my best friend for the mispronounciation) and collapsed.There and then,I wanted to shut my eyes and dream of Mr.Richard Gere...

You know..
I wanna go skinny-dipping.

-

Babe..
If I don't have you in this life,it doesn't matter.We both already know the truth and that's what matters.But I pray to God that I'll have you in my next one (that is,if there ever),where we'd be together..happily ever after.And yes,we'll then head into the midst of nowhere and go skinny.

I love you,
and I don't know how else to put it <3

i live to eat,that's why

2007-06-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

i live to eat,that's why

What's the date today?Maybe I'll buy Seventeen tomorrow and look up at what it says about my horoscope this month.Anyway,it seems as if today marks the start of my "spree".Confidence level's gone soaring high and my ego's been given a ~~tiny~~ oomph.

On to the other spectrum of life..
(I don't know where that came from,but I'm cool like that.HAH)

What with being broke and all,I might as well go on a diet.I was rejecting everyone's offer at treating me anything,that I could stuff my face in.This,dear stranger,is unlike the Nisa everyone else knows.

Thank God for free drinks and employee meals.

yellow yellow,dirty fellow

2007-06-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

yellow yellow,dirty fellow

This is random.

But I absolutely love my brother because he is so merepek.How he tells me of his silly friends,who like to be menyampah with another.How he's my partner-in-crime when we teased our dad about his "natural" hair and awful sense of humour.How he laughs his OMG-I'M-SO-FUNNY laugh.

Pantat ah he.HAHAHAHA
Yes yes,I love mummy and daddy too.

-

I need opinions.

Should I..
a) leave my hair long and curl it afterwards
or
b) rebond and cut it short

happy daddy's

2007-06-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

happy daddy's

First up.

Thank you for the awful tantrums,constant naggings,specks of advices,fixing everything that Abang can't..and the sperm.For if not,I wouldn't be what I am today and especially not here writing this:)

For a reason,I can't stop scratching.Well my limbs are covered with mosquito bites (I'm sweet,see),so that's self-explanary.But my back and face feels like as if I've got nasty ants all over,biting me to vent their fury.

Anyway,I wanna get this.

FYI: I only have $5 in my account
(go figure)

-

It wouldn't hurt if you wrote everything in laymen's term,you know.Because right now I'm unable to decipher whatever cryptic language it was that you texted.And it doesn't help that you don't want to pick up the phone to explain.I'll just have to leave it to what I do best now : Assume.

figure you me out

2007-06-17T03:00:00.000+08:00

figure you me out

My fingernails were so bloody filthy.They've already been scrubbed and cleaned during my shower just now,but you should have seen them.Mr Saiful would have been pleased to have the dirt underneath as specimen for Mycology class.

Plus in 2hours,if I don't sleep,I would have then not slept in 24hours.Oh,trust me..I'm tired alright.I'm probably on an average of 1word/minute,and should have my eyelids kept opened with toothpicks.

OMG.My back just.."cackled".

I'm going to sleep now.
(FUCK LA.My feet smells like as if it just decomposed.)

heroes have the right to bleed

2007-06-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

heroes have the right to bleed

You know..I haven't seen abang or mama for days.Okay no,technically I saw her in the morning for a nanosecond or so (with half-open eyes,barely conscious).And I did talk to her just now..but *sigh*.Yeah I know,I sound like as if I'm five.

Almost end of the week now,which reminds me of the many boys I know who've sold their souls to the military.

It's Saturday already?Shit.Still not in bed when it's already 2am,will spell trouble.I've to be up in 5hours and stay up till tomorrow morning @2am.There's that awful smell of regret lingering in the air already.

And why did you just text me an 8-page text of gibberish.
WHAT THE FUCK LA.

god forbid

2007-06-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

god forbid

Whilst hard,cold drops of water slithered down her naked body..she looked down and gasped "My boobs just got bigger."

-

No,not real life scenario.

So settle down boys,don't get horny on me now.I'm just saying that..to have cold water running down your hot and sticky body,is orgasm on its own (pun intended).Lovely!

But you know what sucks?

1) My mouse (it's running everywhere and anywhere)
2) And the fact that I'm broke

I swear if I go through any more pages of LJ sprees and whatnot,I'd have to go to the loansharks to borrow money.And that idea is so peachy now,ain't it.OMG.Why can't those damn designers simplify everything for us,like how they do with the boys?WHY.

I feel like eating alot of food right now.
Okay shut up,Nis.

picky polly pocket

2007-06-14T15:31:00.000+08:00

picky polly pocket

There's a thing between random titles and me.

Right now,my eyelids are half open..or half close.The house reeks of that love-hate smell of paint and varnish,and I'm in need of much sleep.And I can't because I'm supposedly to take care of the house,with mummy sleeping for her night shift later and dad..well,I don't know where he went.

Excuse the rambling eh.
It's really just the weather,doggone crazy.I'd have the air-con blast(ed) at 17 degrees and it'd still be like as if I'm right under Mr Sunshine.Talk about sunny-side up.

Countdown : 36 Days till the specialest day of the year!!! says:
but yea..i have begun to love my curves in a way.
i may be kinda chunky.
but its all good. ..its in now a days.hahaha
Countdown : 36 Days till the specialest day of the year!!! says:
men are starting to prefer women with more meat
nisach says:
HAHAHHA.yeah i know
nisach says:
but big boobs can be sucha disadvantage sometimes
Countdown : 36 Days till the specialest day of the year!!! says:
i know wat u mean!!
Countdown : 36 Days till the specialest day of the year!!! says:
they get in the way..cannot wear so many things cuz the bust is too tight..cannot run without feeling wierd cuz ur boobs r going everywhere...n they just give perverted old men and foreign workers an extra thing to gawk at.
nisach says:
yaaaaaaaaaa
nisach says:
and and and...
nisach says:
they hurt so bad when pms comes
nisach says:
and when you run too much
nisach says:
GAH
Countdown : 36 Days till the specialest day of the year!!! says:
hahahaha
Countdown : 36 Days till the specialest day of the year!!! says:
i think urs r still growing or sumthing

I'm talking to nana right now. Just 36 days more.
And I think Lin can relate to the running part.

Oh heck.
I'm just gonna snooze..for awhile.