♥
Friday, September 30, 2005
fine.you(YES,YOU) don't like what i am,what i've become.
i don't care.i really don't.
because there's a reason behind it,and like i've said before..
i change because there's a need,NOT to please.
so please.
stop pretending.
stop pretending to like me.
stop pretending to be my friend.
because i don't need friends who are plastics.
if you don't like me,tell me.
we then don't need the fake smiles and the oh-we're-the-best-of-friends attitude. just fucking tell me and i won't have a grudge against you. there would then be no need of anyone accusing anyone else of being a hypocrite.
save the charade.
yes it goes to you.
YOU.WHO'S READING THIS BLOODY POST.
taggers;
weiqi; it's not me.it's the top:)
sweetkisses; i need an atm boy.haha.
pzyko; nah.not model material.take care boy.
♥
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
bimbotic
post.beware-i bought this top yesterday from The Box at about half the original price.was tempted to buy 2 more tops but i "withdrew".why?because i'm going to have retail therapy this saturday.sale sale saleeeeeeee.shop shop shoppinggggggggg.i loike those 2 words:)
lack the -kaching- though.so this whole week i might starve myself to death saving my allowance..or borrow money from my mother(though i'd probably only get 50 smackeroos).walked around town as well,temptation hit me.BAD.there's this green tube dress from forever21.
pretty pretty.so many things,so little money.
so this whole week,
1. i will bury myself under the heaps of notes and books(this i dread.DUH!)
2. i will save my allowance and salvage for food at granny's(nis is cheapskate)
3. i will start on 3-task-to-do list everyday,from tomorrow onwards(to keep myself occupied.VERY occupied)
taggers;
jenn; well.the only thing ive to do is cut&paste:)
fz; MIKE&IKE.love 'em.tried berries the first time,dun like 'em.
dan; yes yes.but let's pretend her invisibility k?
♥
Saturday, September 24, 2005
looking through deviantArt and boy,am i envious.
so much i want to do,so much i don't have.
there's photography,abstract art,vector art etc.
i want to accomplish so badly.
i need help.anyone?
baby boy,
everything's messy.
it's utter misery.
you're my pill.
make me still.
baby boy,
drug me.
♥
Friday, September 23, 2005
i don't know why people put "anonymous" or "passerby".there's too many of you around and i'm sure that's not how people address you ,is it?if it is,pardon me.by the way,"anonymous"..
just say BITCH.there's no need for the censorship on my blog and especially not anonymity.at least i'm being honest for being sometimes.like how a guy would admit to masturbation.it takes balls:)
this doesn't sound nisa-ish no?by the way darling,it's deprived and not deprieved.and she says,"thank you for visiting" then goes rolling on the floor with laughter.
and now kiddies..
even though i've studied just now,i'd like to study for an hour or so now.why?because i've the funny urge to do so,that's why.then i'm coming back here and do the nonsensical shit i do every night,which is..try very hard to get rid of my boredom.
and i'm hyped today.must be the jellybeans and you,babe.
♥
Thursday, September 22, 2005
since i was naked without photoshop,i meddled with ms powerpoint and my digi.be amazed now!and yes,that's a picture of me and my best friend being a we bit eccentric(probably from suntecdance).and have i mentioned that he has abandoned me for 1 week for US?thankyouverymuch,melvyn martin chong.
ladies and gentleman,i present to you..
my Arsehole Friend.
(defi: (noun) 1. one who irritates the shit out of you,yet makes you want him at the same time. 2. one who you do everything with and have everything with,except commitment)
what else can i say?his actions just don't interlink with his words.the complication is beyond me.oh yes.went studying with raidah and linda today.danial tan,i know what you're thinking..we really did tau.raidah's damn cute when she "merajuks" with her boyfriend:)
taggers;
Danny: eee.wannabe gothic like you?thank you but no thank you.
SwEeeTkiSsEs: you're MIA and linked.
nurul ain: yaaaaarrr.wasted.ah vell.i KNOW one of them.nurul jealous.
weiqi: i know.you're having your holidays but o's are coming.so we will very soon.hugs.
♥
Monday, September 19, 2005
he asked me out.
but i couldn't.
there was the tendency to be hugged(or kissed),
and i couldn't let that happen.bastard makes me want him.
but what can i say?he IS HOT.smiles.have i mentioned richard gere too?
he's probably sleeping,since he didn't reply.
the only thing he doesn't know..
is how much i miss him.
♥
ye ye,hear all.added new terrible visuals on the previous post.
just a terrible concoction of me,the camera,a black scarf and crimson coloured nails.not gothic,not blacknails.
anyway,everything's just really mundane right now.
and richard gere's HOT.see new visa advert.
bored and sexually deprived.and hungry.
someone just kiss me and bring me food.NOW!
-prays it'll be you
♥
Saturday, September 17, 2005
and there's blackmaria
I just like the unintentional effects. Was at Suntec Dance 'o5 with Melv and I bumped into so many people.God,everyone was hot.Item by item,things were just getting better.Kids way younger than us were shaking their every muscle,making the whole crowd wild.oohlala.Miss Nurul ain told me they were gonna open a dancefloor.YEA RIGHT.I so badly wanted to dance(or grind.shhhh.don't tell).ah vell.
On another note..
Friday made me went,"hey.it's friday already",when ironically I was complaining the day before how the hands of the clock moved so slowly.And Hisham called yesterday,just to tell me he was in camp.wokay.miss that boy though:)
taggers;
dan: don't know,dont care.and FOR EVERYONES' SAKE..SPECIFY.
.::Fyza::.: yes.books and food we will have soon.
♥
Thursday, September 15, 2005
i need the days to pass fast.very fast.
so if anyone would be kind enough,
study or chill.ask me out.
taggers;
sarah: you'll be fine.gdluck for the prelims.hugs.
eyysufyanlasiakk: will contact you soon.
bangla: say as you please.do as you please.pandai2 layan sendiri,BOY.
♥
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
you couldn't be that man that i adored.
you don't seem to know,
seem to care,
what your heart is for
♥
Sunday, September 11, 2005
i need chocolates
I thought I could get a bar of fat&sugar just now but since we were having 62-35-35-35 for dinner,I decided to buy a bottle of coke.Hey,I was afraid no one would order together with the food.Unexpectedly,my brother did.-suddenly remembers the dark chocolate flavour of the Ice Cocoa in her mouth.
So the only chocolates I have now are from asyraf.4 pretty heart-shaped chocolates wrapped in metallic coloured foils.I could eat the chocolates,it's just that..Well,they're soooooo prettaye.There's one in every colour of baby blue,pink,gold and purple.That's why they've been in there for about 5months.yes,F-I-V-E.It's not about asyraf.Like I said,he's just there now with no significance whatsoever.
Will someone just shut me up with chocolates please?NOW.
♥
Saturday, September 10, 2005
yes.i changed layout again.need i need you to tell me?
is it just me or is it like to-be-depress week?it got so fucking bad yesterday(or should i say this morning),that i cried.those painful,silent ones.and i realised that there's no one around to turn to.i mean,maybe there is..maybe i need to ASK(like you said,babe).then again,what you got to offer may not satisfy me.oh shoot me.
today was be-alone-and-study day.so i did what i did and bumped into people.speaking of which..i saw long lost good friend yesterday.ALIFAH!i have not seen her for like..5years.i swear i miss her.and i saw elroy yesterday.okayyyy.that was..nothing to get excited over,right?yes.my ex is still as cute as always.this is all getting out of context.anyway,after studying,i had a Ice Cocoa from Starbucks and for a while.everything seemed alright.For A While.someone please just send me hugs.pleaseeeeeeee?
taggers;
eyysufyanlasiakk: you're still using the same number right?
lene: intro me some then.and it's just to talk.his presence is somewhat insignificant now.
dan: i don't have a brother with danial in his I/C.so will you kindly specify who you are?WILL ALL THE DANIALS' IN THE WORLD DO THAT?
♥
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Today was a shitty day.Literally.
Why?Because i stepped on DOG POO!
And he was laughing at me all the way and going like,
A:"So what are you gonna tell your mum?"
me:stares at him.
A:"I had a shitty day mum.Literally."
ah vell.At least,I saw my teddy bear and I guess things would be better.Just waiting for his reply.
♥
Sunday, September 04, 2005
that moment.
that moment where it was us two entwined as one.where we embraced,under the dark sky,with the raindrops on our faces.it was just beyond.i felt loved.
but now?
well,i'll try to carry on without you.i'm trying.because i had a dream last night where you came back.where you came back happy to see me,thankful to embrace me.
i miss you.take care.
♥
Friday, September 02, 2005
my libido got the best of me.
fuck.come back.
tell me you need me.
tell me you want me.
♥
Thursday, September 01, 2005
I'm at the verge of tripping into the pits of being a hopeless romantic,confusion and possible depression.Right.
Love's a slut.Why?
Because it comes,as alot-at-once small small present and not as once-in-awhile big big present.ugh.I need packets of fat and sugar(a.k.a chocolate).I need those endorphins produced.I need to calm down.Any chocolate supplier?or you could be a chocolate and i'll lick you?HAH.
okay.that was not called for..
BUT I STILL NEED CHOCOLATE.Period.
♥
Friday, September 30, 2005
fine.you(YES,YOU) don't like what i am,what i've become.
i don't care.i really don't.
because there's a reason behind it,and like i've said before..
i change because there's a need,NOT to please.
so please.
stop pretending.
stop pretending to like me.
stop pretending to be my friend.
because i don't need friends who are plastics.
if you don't like me,tell me.
we then don't need the fake smiles and the oh-we're-the-best-of-friends attitude. just fucking tell me and i won't have a grudge against you. there would then be no need of anyone accusing anyone else of being a hypocrite.
save the charade.
yes it goes to you.
YOU.WHO'S READING THIS BLOODY POST.
taggers;
weiqi; it's not me.it's the top:)
sweetkisses; i need an atm boy.haha.
pzyko; nah.not model material.take care boy.
♥
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
bimbotic
post.beware-i bought this top yesterday from The Box at about half the original price.was tempted to buy 2 more tops but i "withdrew".why?because i'm going to have retail therapy this saturday.sale sale saleeeeeeee.shop shop shoppinggggggggg.i loike those 2 words:)
lack the -kaching- though.so this whole week i might starve myself to death saving my allowance..or borrow money from my mother(though i'd probably only get 50 smackeroos).walked around town as well,temptation hit me.BAD.there's this green tube dress from forever21.
pretty pretty.so many things,so little money.
so this whole week,
1. i will bury myself under the heaps of notes and books(this i dread.DUH!)
2. i will save my allowance and salvage for food at granny's(nis is cheapskate)
3. i will start on 3-task-to-do list everyday,from tomorrow onwards(to keep myself occupied.VERY occupied)
taggers;
jenn; well.the only thing ive to do is cut&paste:)
fz; MIKE&IKE.love 'em.tried berries the first time,dun like 'em.
dan; yes yes.but let's pretend her invisibility k?
♥
Saturday, September 24, 2005
looking through deviantArt and boy,am i envious.
so much i want to do,so much i don't have.
there's photography,abstract art,vector art etc.
i want to accomplish so badly.
i need help.anyone?
baby boy,
everything's messy.
it's utter misery.
you're my pill.
make me still.
baby boy,
drug me.
♥
Friday, September 23, 2005
i don't know why people put "anonymous" or "passerby".there's too many of you around and i'm sure that's not how people address you ,is it?if it is,pardon me.by the way,"anonymous"..
just say BITCH.there's no need for the censorship on my blog and especially not anonymity.at least i'm being honest for being sometimes.like how a guy would admit to masturbation.it takes balls:)
this doesn't sound nisa-ish no?by the way darling,it's deprived and not deprieved.and she says,"thank you for visiting" then goes rolling on the floor with laughter.
and now kiddies..
even though i've studied just now,i'd like to study for an hour or so now.why?because i've the funny urge to do so,that's why.then i'm coming back here and do the nonsensical shit i do every night,which is..try very hard to get rid of my boredom.
and i'm hyped today.must be the jellybeans and you,babe.
♥
Thursday, September 22, 2005
since i was naked without photoshop,i meddled with ms powerpoint and my digi.be amazed now!and yes,that's a picture of me and my best friend being a we bit eccentric(probably from suntecdance).and have i mentioned that he has abandoned me for 1 week for US?thankyouverymuch,melvyn martin chong.
ladies and gentleman,i present to you..
my Arsehole Friend.
(defi: (noun) 1. one who irritates the shit out of you,yet makes you want him at the same time. 2. one who you do everything with and have everything with,except commitment)
what else can i say?his actions just don't interlink with his words.the complication is beyond me.oh yes.went studying with raidah and linda today.danial tan,i know what you're thinking..we really did tau.raidah's damn cute when she "merajuks" with her boyfriend:)
taggers;
Danny: eee.wannabe gothic like you?thank you but no thank you.
SwEeeTkiSsEs: you're MIA and linked.
nurul ain: yaaaaarrr.wasted.ah vell.i KNOW one of them.nurul jealous.
weiqi: i know.you're having your holidays but o's are coming.so we will very soon.hugs.
♥
Monday, September 19, 2005
he asked me out.
but i couldn't.
there was the tendency to be hugged(or kissed),
and i couldn't let that happen.bastard makes me want him.
but what can i say?he IS HOT.smiles.have i mentioned richard gere too?
he's probably sleeping,since he didn't reply.
the only thing he doesn't know..
is how much i miss him.
♥
ye ye,hear all.added new terrible visuals on the previous post.
just a terrible concoction of me,the camera,a black scarf and crimson coloured nails.not gothic,not blacknails.
anyway,everything's just really mundane right now.
and richard gere's HOT.see new visa advert.
bored and sexually deprived.and hungry.
someone just kiss me and bring me food.NOW!
-prays it'll be you
♥
Saturday, September 17, 2005
and there's blackmaria
I just like the unintentional effects. Was at Suntec Dance 'o5 with Melv and I bumped into so many people.God,everyone was hot.Item by item,things were just getting better.Kids way younger than us were shaking their every muscle,making the whole crowd wild.oohlala.Miss Nurul ain told me they were gonna open a dancefloor.YEA RIGHT.I so badly wanted to dance(or grind.shhhh.don't tell).ah vell.
On another note..
Friday made me went,"hey.it's friday already",when ironically I was complaining the day before how the hands of the clock moved so slowly.And Hisham called yesterday,just to tell me he was in camp.wokay.miss that boy though:)
taggers;
dan: don't know,dont care.and FOR EVERYONES' SAKE..SPECIFY.
.::Fyza::.: yes.books and food we will have soon.
♥
Thursday, September 15, 2005
i need the days to pass fast.very fast.
so if anyone would be kind enough,
study or chill.ask me out.
taggers;
sarah: you'll be fine.gdluck for the prelims.hugs.
eyysufyanlasiakk: will contact you soon.
bangla: say as you please.do as you please.pandai2 layan sendiri,BOY.
♥
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
you couldn't be that man that i adored.
you don't seem to know,
seem to care,
what your heart is for
♥
Sunday, September 11, 2005
i need chocolates
I thought I could get a bar of fat&sugar just now but since we were having 62-35-35-35 for dinner,I decided to buy a bottle of coke.Hey,I was afraid no one would order together with the food.Unexpectedly,my brother did.-suddenly remembers the dark chocolate flavour of the Ice Cocoa in her mouth.
So the only chocolates I have now are from asyraf.4 pretty heart-shaped chocolates wrapped in metallic coloured foils.I could eat the chocolates,it's just that..Well,they're soooooo prettaye.There's one in every colour of baby blue,pink,gold and purple.That's why they've been in there for about 5months.yes,F-I-V-E.It's not about asyraf.Like I said,he's just there now with no significance whatsoever.
Will someone just shut me up with chocolates please?NOW.
♥
Saturday, September 10, 2005
yes.i changed layout again.need i need you to tell me?
is it just me or is it like to-be-depress week?it got so fucking bad yesterday(or should i say this morning),that i cried.those painful,silent ones.and i realised that there's no one around to turn to.i mean,maybe there is..maybe i need to ASK(like you said,babe).then again,what you got to offer may not satisfy me.oh shoot me.
today was be-alone-and-study day.so i did what i did and bumped into people.speaking of which..i saw long lost good friend yesterday.ALIFAH!i have not seen her for like..5years.i swear i miss her.and i saw elroy yesterday.okayyyy.that was..nothing to get excited over,right?yes.my ex is still as cute as always.this is all getting out of context.anyway,after studying,i had a Ice Cocoa from Starbucks and for a while.everything seemed alright.For A While.someone please just send me hugs.pleaseeeeeeee?
taggers;
eyysufyanlasiakk: you're still using the same number right?
lene: intro me some then.and it's just to talk.his presence is somewhat insignificant now.
dan: i don't have a brother with danial in his I/C.so will you kindly specify who you are?WILL ALL THE DANIALS' IN THE WORLD DO THAT?
♥
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Today was a shitty day.Literally.
Why?Because i stepped on DOG POO!
And he was laughing at me all the way and going like,
A:"So what are you gonna tell your mum?"
me:stares at him.
A:"I had a shitty day mum.Literally."
ah vell.At least,I saw my teddy bear and I guess things would be better.Just waiting for his reply.
♥
Sunday, September 04, 2005
that moment.
that moment where it was us two entwined as one.where we embraced,under the dark sky,with the raindrops on our faces.it was just beyond.i felt loved.
but now?
well,i'll try to carry on without you.i'm trying.because i had a dream last night where you came back.where you came back happy to see me,thankful to embrace me.
i miss you.take care.
♥
Friday, September 02, 2005
my libido got the best of me.
fuck.come back.
tell me you need me.
tell me you want me.
♥
Thursday, September 01, 2005
I'm at the verge of tripping into the pits of being a hopeless romantic,confusion and possible depression.Right.
Love's a slut.Why?
Because it comes,as alot-at-once small small present and not as once-in-awhile big big present.ugh.I need packets of fat and sugar(a.k.a chocolate).I need those endorphins produced.I need to calm down.Any chocolate supplier?or you could be a chocolate and i'll lick you?HAH.
okay.that was not called for..
BUT I STILL NEED CHOCOLATE.Period.
