i had a "reunion dinner" just now,with mum and i cooking.it was a really big feast for the 4 of us..home cooked food didn't taste better.i guess it's a bittersweet thing that mum doesn't always cook.it's appreciated much more..

1) sweet and sour promfret
2) baby kailan with cod fish
3) ayam kambing masak merah
4) kambing soup

{p/s kambing means lamb}
ironically,there was more dishes than rice.mum laughed it off.

OH YES.I GOT MY PAY.
no,don't look at me for "belanja-ing" you all.the money's strictly going for swensen's for my family and also the new phone.i doubt i'll have money left for my own shopping.i dread this thought so much.I'M SO IN NEED OF NEW CLOTHES. then again...
maybe i'll just make some.ripping here,sewing there.HEH.

i need culture-intake.i wanna go arab st.
i want to take in the atmosphere,sheesha and eye candy.and when i say eye candy,i don't mean the men around arab st..just the little alleys,the night and mood and the men.did i just contradict myself?anyone up for it can call me.

random thought:
why do people ask "can i ask you a question" when they're gonna ask a question?it's not as if the other person's gonna give you a big FAT NO right?courtesy?maybe.but still....

{p/s no one's talking about the pictures,so i take it that it's distasteful.i'll go do more and brush up.weeeee}

i just thought i'd upload afew pictures..
tell me whether it's good please.
{p/s i didn't use a SLR,but a digi.hence,the terrible pictures}

edition: flowers


bougaville
(i'm not sure of spelling)


bougaville2


spider lily


ixora


(insert-name-here)


ixora2


withered orchid

the last 2 are my favourites.the last one is,if i'm not wrong,the only one where i bothered to adjust the camera's settings manually.sure is,beauty in the breakdown.

it's almost 2 in the morning now.my brother's out and everyone else..is suprisingly awake.gee.
well goodnight/goodmorning.
(whichever suits you)

i usually don't expect much on CNY,hence..$38 fromvisiting 3houses is good enough (plus free KFC meal.okay,kental).that sum of money will go to the "Buy Nisa A New Phone" fund and any sponsors/donations will be greatly appreciated.

ah yes.my pay's coming soon too.however,i dread the fact that half would probably go to buying a new phone.

my face's still swollen.i feel fugly enough,so shut up.
other than that?not much.Good day.

today will mark the day where i first...

1) fainted (almost right after the jab)
2) was given the drip
3) was in an ambulance (with cute malay nerds.or maybe it was the drug)
4) was warded afew hours for observation
5) saw a convict in the bed,guarded by two officers in the ward.heh.

the doctor said the drug would cause drowsiness after the jab.
oh yeah.it sure did.

bad news is i still feel oozy,even after napping throughout 3/4 of the day.good news is that i don't have a rash and the swelling's subsided.just in time for CNY visting tomorrow..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL!

owwwww.my arm feels bruised.

i woke up this morning,feeling as if my face was all over my pillow.i went to look in the mirror and realised (besides already being chubby)..


THAT MY FACE WAS SWOLLEN!

even my ears are swollen.plus,i've rashes all over my body.talk about an allergic reaction.god knows what i had that triggered.i predict the next few days will be stay-ins.shitty.

I WENT SENTOSA TODAY!!
i'm all at the cheeks and my nose now,with a slight tan.ahmad kamil,why are you laughing?TSK.

i swear i was sucha jinx/sotong/kental today.let me summarise evrything up for your convenience..

1) i forgot to bring the mat,so we had to improvise.we bought a plastic table cloth.HAH.
2) i was eating the strawberry doughnut and somehow got the jam all over me.
3) i stupidly placed the 7up bottle on the sand,sending it rolling down the beach (since it was a slope).
4)i opened a bottle of badly shakened carbonated water,and got it all over me.(worst is?i reacted to that like 2seconds slow)
5) on the way back,i was fucking blur at the standard ticket machine.VERY BLUR.ask feez for info.sheeeeeesh.

overall,IT WAS PURE FUN.thank you feez,lina and anisa.oh yeah.i managed to have some shut eye at the beach,under the VERY hot sun.

feez and me went to meet shaz after that,but not after waiting for her for 45mins.went to parkway for dinner and headed to starbucks for dessert(?),since we didn't go for some em..occasion.we got extra chocolate for our chocolatey muffin and i was jumping for utter joy.YUM PLEASE.we just talked,laughed and bonded.it was all girly,it was nice,it was..comfortable and warm.THANK YOU GIRLS.MUCHLOVE.


i guess now..
i can cut loneliness from my friends list now.

{/edit}
JAMIE CULLUM IS LOVED.HEH.

danial tan adam,since you're off to (insert destination here)..

happy 18th birthday in advance!

so i haven't been going out much and even if i did,i'd be home before 10 (cue to GASP).i'm so brokeeeeeee and i've yet to top up my ez-link.plus,the pay's coming in only at the end of the month and half would probably go to the new phone.

talked to naufal:)

so yes..as i was saying,i haven't been out much.
i hope the SENTOSA trip tomorrow is still on.i so badly want to go and i so badly need a tan.it's also because feez is having her off-day tomorrow (her only off-day for the week).

i've reasons to smile now.YAY.

the old man's andrepause has become a constant.
and,


have i mentioned that i need a life?

then it hit me..


if i asked,
would you say yes?





and somehow listening to The Cranberries made me happy...

you gave a glance and left with a smile.and then,pitter patter pitter patter...

these are my random thoughts.
you're my perfect stranger.

caution:
post-o-levels syndrome is contagious for the unassociated (whatever that meant).

so TP today.
i went to the seminar and half of the time,they were talking about how to get into universities.right.however,there were some aspects where it was useful.i'm probably going down to RELC building next week,to find out which course suits me.anyone interested,call me.

so about half of the time in TP,was spent at TP Design canteen.i'm beginning to like it,especially with good food.i saw the photographer who was hired at '05 prom night.effingcute.my cousin came along later and we managed to have an insight on afew courses.i'd be going to TP again for their jam&hop @ 7pm tomorrow and to find out more about other courses.

random thought: i miss you,mister.

public apology:
feez,
sorry for not meeting you at work.what made it worse was that it slipped my mind and that i didn't call/msg you earlier to tell you.

other than that..
1) pacific coffee wants permanent part-time.go figure.
2) i ended up going to NYP,alone.
(however,i somehow meet alot of people and had a personal guide.thank you fairuz)
3) i had cheeseburger for dinner,with loneliness as company.

TP ought to be a blast tomorrow.i hope my always-making-me-laugh cousin is coming.much love people.

p.s call me out pleaseeee?

PACIFIC COFFEE FINALLY CALLED!!
then i had to find out that lin might quit her job.tsk.lin buat spoil aje.ah vell.will be going for the briefing tomorrow.

and it's annoying how the poly-s are having their open-house all on the same day.bloody genius.

yazid's so innocently funny:)
here's the convo:

EMIRATES Flight steward/ Cabin crew says:
i feel like eating something soft and cold.
flirt bang bang says:
soft and cold???
flirt bang bang says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
flirt bang bang says:
sound so wrong
EMIRATES Flight steward/ Cabin crew says:
huh? ya something soft and cold.
flirt bang bang says:
haha
flirt bang bang says:
nvm

oh yes.he meant jelly.HEH.

I NEED A JOB.

it's time to take my mind off certain issues.i'm sorry to those who i've somehow,unintentionally,worry or upset.i'm not exactly in the right frame of mind,so pardon me. (this sounds bloody formal)

my phone's fucked people.
if you can't get through..
1) leave a voice message
2) text me.
3) call my house number (if you don't have it,be smart and ask)

amidst the other info i have in my brain,
i can't seem to find a name.
no one.

black sheep girl is loner.





p.s deleted previous post.screw it.

whatever i type now is for my own benefit and on no one's behalf but mine.i repeat,SOLELY MINE.

to that "crew",
(and firstly,i'm not naming because i don't want to embarass unaware parties.those who are aware of what's going on,know damn well who they are.)i'm sure some of you will be reading,so you can damn well tell your other friends about this.

so LET'S FACE IT.WE DISLIKE (if not hate) EACH OTHER.don't act all "oh i'm okay with her" with me,when you actually bitch behind my back and go "oh nisa.that bloody bitch".this i know because your dear friend told me.i'm sure i didn't get it wrong because that person likes to play neutral (neutral.HAH).

but yes,whatever.

point is?well,please take note.
stop all the plastic smiles and your pretence-filled-let's-start-talking-to-nisa.stop acting as if you have no bloody issues with me when in actual fact,you do.i'd rather you just walk past me,as if i was invincible.face it.it's a mutual we-dont-like-each-other,so LET'S ACT THE PART.
this is for me not being hypocritical.have a nice day.

it's 2.15am and i'm stuck in this i'm-beyond-stagnant mood.so i'll just put up these pictures,because there havent been for a very long time.

isolate


jagged clouds


past&present


fluffy clouds


sunset

dad: lock the gate.don't take for granted.
bro: it's not taking for granted.we're already having problems with our own door.AND WE'VE GOT KEYS YA KNOW.
dad,bro and myself burst out laughing.

THERE WAS SUN TODAY!!!YAYNESS.
too bad i didn't wake up early,or i would have gone out blading.i have to start the exercise regimen soon!!i weighed myself the other day and i've put on 5kg already (or it could be because i weighed myself right after eating a whole plate of bryani)!

gee.that made me sound very bimbo.i'm not going on the regime because "oh i think i'm fat".i'm doing it because i haven't done any exercise for..since april last year.i get all lethargic easily and mum said it's bad that i suddenly stop exercising,after 4years of OAC and all.I MISS OAC.I MISS DB!

i'm also in MAJOR need of cash now.

ADILIN ISMAIL,QUICK COME ONLINE!I WANT TO GO BLADING TMRRRRRRRR!

moments before,i was physically unfit and emotionally unwell.shaky hands,hunger pangs,slight pounding in temples.almost every part of my body is either injured or aching.half of them was thanks to facial today (if you squirm easily,do not read next para.I WARNED YOU).

it was FUCKING OOOUUUUCCHHHHHHHHHH today.
(think: someone with tweezers-like instruments.they're digging for gold in every pore,pimple,crevice and crany on your face.all that comes out is blood,translucent liquid and whatnot.hence,they keep "searching for gold".excruciating?YES.)

guys ought to go for bloody facials and know what pain really is.some of you tetesterone become pussies at the sight of a mere needle.bloodyhell.try going through one bloody facial la,i bet you'll fucking cry.

THE BITCHES AT CITRA AYU (place where i have my facial) DID NOT DO A FUCKING GOOD JOB.I WENT OUT OF THE PLACE,WITH BLOOD AND SOME LIQUID SHIT COMING OUT FROM MY PIMPLES.NOT ONLY THAT,THEY HAD THE BLOODY CHEEK TO MOCK ME.FROM NOW ON,I'LL JUST GO TO A SKINCARE SPECIALIST.BITCHFUCK.

however,my day lighten with the sight of feez&lina for our lunchdate.went to the airport to meet lin during her break and i finally,filled up the application form for a position at pacific coffee.i hope they'll call soon because i'm in need of -kaching-.

OH YES.I STRAIGHTENED MY HAIR (temporarily for a day) YESTERDAY.due to me having a shortage of cash,i hesitated.then shaz persisted and we were suppose to do it together anywae,so i thought.."why not?".at first it looked very cheenah.after awhile,it looked more natural and i'm now (re)considering rebonding.THANKS SHAZ <3

i'm also now unofficially the messenger of the-2-who-made-that-KENTAL-3day-bet.please remember to thank me on saturday.TSK.and as soon as someone's cable will stop being a bitch,i can get the photo i want.then i can have a full-claimed skin.

I'M OFFICIALLY OUT OF JOB!
AND I LOVE IT!

that is,for now.i've to find a new job,so that i'll have money for personal expenditure.to add to that,i don't like spending my parents' money.nagging conscience + nagging parents.

how many times have you people seen me type,"i'm bored shitless now"?because i wanted to type that out,but realisation hit me that i've typed that out too-many-a-times.simply shows how stagnant my life is.will someone please make me laugh my heart out?


and tell nis you love her..

11jan is a day to jump for joy.because then,i would be out of work which also means that i've quit polar.now however,i've to suffer the remaining hours and pretend that i love "selling hot dogs"(quote from hans).

everyone also take note,that you have permission to slap me if i dont..
1)start dieting.which means sticking to only 1 fast food meal out of the 21meals for the whole week.
2) go roller blading every morning for at least 30mins (unless i'm working the morning shift)

i somehow,unintentionally,deleted all the pictures in my mom's cam(note: not like hans,adobe was being sucha bitch).guess you could call it retribution.

you say you see my smiles.
it's all a charade.

i've not been sleeping well.
i've not been eating well.
i'm emotionally disturbed.
so if i do breakdown abruptly,
don't be suprised.

I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE IT.

please make me fucking better.
i beg of you.
anyone?please?

the new year was too much for me..
from absolute bliss to absolute misery.


thanks for making me feel this way,mom.

25o788;NP-HLM
[msn] silverbubble_gal@hotmail.com

-
I always wonder what it'd be like..
To be able to sleep amongst the clouds.

i had a "reunion dinner" just now,with mum and i cooking.it was a really big feast for the 4 of us..home cooked food didn't taste better.i guess it's a bittersweet thing that mum doesn't always cook.it's appreciated much more..

1) sweet and sour promfret
2) baby kailan with cod fish
3) ayam kambing masak merah
4) kambing soup

{p/s kambing means lamb}
ironically,there was more dishes than rice.mum laughed it off.

OH YES.I GOT MY PAY.
no,don't look at me for "belanja-ing" you all.the money's strictly going for swensen's for my family and also the new phone.i doubt i'll have money left for my own shopping.i dread this thought so much.I'M SO IN NEED OF NEW CLOTHES. then again...
maybe i'll just make some.ripping here,sewing there.HEH.

i need culture-intake.i wanna go arab st.
i want to take in the atmosphere,sheesha and eye candy.and when i say eye candy,i don't mean the men around arab st..just the little alleys,the night and mood and the men.did i just contradict myself?anyone up for it can call me.

random thought:
why do people ask "can i ask you a question" when they're gonna ask a question?it's not as if the other person's gonna give you a big FAT NO right?courtesy?maybe.but still....

{p/s no one's talking about the pictures,so i take it that it's distasteful.i'll go do more and brush up.weeeee}

i just thought i'd upload afew pictures..
tell me whether it's good please.
{p/s i didn't use a SLR,but a digi.hence,the terrible pictures}

edition: flowers


bougaville
(i'm not sure of spelling)


bougaville2


spider lily


ixora


(insert-name-here)


ixora2


withered orchid

the last 2 are my favourites.the last one is,if i'm not wrong,the only one where i bothered to adjust the camera's settings manually.sure is,beauty in the breakdown.

it's almost 2 in the morning now.my brother's out and everyone else..is suprisingly awake.gee.
well goodnight/goodmorning.
(whichever suits you)

i usually don't expect much on CNY,hence..$38 fromvisiting 3houses is good enough (plus free KFC meal.okay,kental).that sum of money will go to the "Buy Nisa A New Phone" fund and any sponsors/donations will be greatly appreciated.

ah yes.my pay's coming soon too.however,i dread the fact that half would probably go to buying a new phone.

my face's still swollen.i feel fugly enough,so shut up.
other than that?not much.Good day.

today will mark the day where i first...

1) fainted (almost right after the jab)
2) was given the drip
3) was in an ambulance (with cute malay nerds.or maybe it was the drug)
4) was warded afew hours for observation
5) saw a convict in the bed,guarded by two officers in the ward.heh.

the doctor said the drug would cause drowsiness after the jab.
oh yeah.it sure did.

bad news is i still feel oozy,even after napping throughout 3/4 of the day.good news is that i don't have a rash and the swelling's subsided.just in time for CNY visting tomorrow..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL!

owwwww.my arm feels bruised.

i woke up this morning,feeling as if my face was all over my pillow.i went to look in the mirror and realised (besides already being chubby)..


THAT MY FACE WAS SWOLLEN!

even my ears are swollen.plus,i've rashes all over my body.talk about an allergic reaction.god knows what i had that triggered.i predict the next few days will be stay-ins.shitty.

I WENT SENTOSA TODAY!!
i'm all at the cheeks and my nose now,with a slight tan.ahmad kamil,why are you laughing?TSK.

i swear i was sucha jinx/sotong/kental today.let me summarise evrything up for your convenience..

1) i forgot to bring the mat,so we had to improvise.we bought a plastic table cloth.HAH.
2) i was eating the strawberry doughnut and somehow got the jam all over me.
3) i stupidly placed the 7up bottle on the sand,sending it rolling down the beach (since it was a slope).
4)i opened a bottle of badly shakened carbonated water,and got it all over me.(worst is?i reacted to that like 2seconds slow)
5) on the way back,i was fucking blur at the standard ticket machine.VERY BLUR.ask feez for info.sheeeeeesh.

overall,IT WAS PURE FUN.thank you feez,lina and anisa.oh yeah.i managed to have some shut eye at the beach,under the VERY hot sun.

feez and me went to meet shaz after that,but not after waiting for her for 45mins.went to parkway for dinner and headed to starbucks for dessert(?),since we didn't go for some em..occasion.we got extra chocolate for our chocolatey muffin and i was jumping for utter joy.YUM PLEASE.we just talked,laughed and bonded.it was all girly,it was nice,it was..comfortable and warm.THANK YOU GIRLS.MUCHLOVE.


i guess now..
i can cut loneliness from my friends list now.

{/edit}
JAMIE CULLUM IS LOVED.HEH.

danial tan adam,since you're off to (insert destination here)..

happy 18th birthday in advance!

so i haven't been going out much and even if i did,i'd be home before 10 (cue to GASP).i'm so brokeeeeeee and i've yet to top up my ez-link.plus,the pay's coming in only at the end of the month and half would probably go to the new phone.

talked to naufal:)

so yes..as i was saying,i haven't been out much.
i hope the SENTOSA trip tomorrow is still on.i so badly want to go and i so badly need a tan.it's also because feez is having her off-day tomorrow (her only off-day for the week).

i've reasons to smile now.YAY.

the old man's andrepause has become a constant.
and,


have i mentioned that i need a life?

then it hit me..


if i asked,
would you say yes?





and somehow listening to The Cranberries made me happy...

you gave a glance and left with a smile.and then,pitter patter pitter patter...

these are my random thoughts.
you're my perfect stranger.

caution:
post-o-levels syndrome is contagious for the unassociated (whatever that meant).

so TP today.
i went to the seminar and half of the time,they were talking about how to get into universities.right.however,there were some aspects where it was useful.i'm probably going down to RELC building next week,to find out which course suits me.anyone interested,call me.

so about half of the time in TP,was spent at TP Design canteen.i'm beginning to like it,especially with good food.i saw the photographer who was hired at '05 prom night.effingcute.my cousin came along later and we managed to have an insight on afew courses.i'd be going to TP again for their jam&hop @ 7pm tomorrow and to find out more about other courses.

random thought: i miss you,mister.

public apology:
feez,
sorry for not meeting you at work.what made it worse was that it slipped my mind and that i didn't call/msg you earlier to tell you.

other than that..
1) pacific coffee wants permanent part-time.go figure.
2) i ended up going to NYP,alone.
(however,i somehow meet alot of people and had a personal guide.thank you fairuz)
3) i had cheeseburger for dinner,with loneliness as company.

TP ought to be a blast tomorrow.i hope my always-making-me-laugh cousin is coming.much love people.

p.s call me out pleaseeee?

PACIFIC COFFEE FINALLY CALLED!!
then i had to find out that lin might quit her job.tsk.lin buat spoil aje.ah vell.will be going for the briefing tomorrow.

and it's annoying how the poly-s are having their open-house all on the same day.bloody genius.

yazid's so innocently funny:)
here's the convo:

EMIRATES Flight steward/ Cabin crew says:
i feel like eating something soft and cold.
flirt bang bang says:
soft and cold???
flirt bang bang says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
flirt bang bang says:
sound so wrong
EMIRATES Flight steward/ Cabin crew says:
huh? ya something soft and cold.
flirt bang bang says:
haha
flirt bang bang says:
nvm

oh yes.he meant jelly.HEH.

I NEED A JOB.

it's time to take my mind off certain issues.i'm sorry to those who i've somehow,unintentionally,worry or upset.i'm not exactly in the right frame of mind,so pardon me. (this sounds bloody formal)

my phone's fucked people.
if you can't get through..
1) leave a voice message
2) text me.
3) call my house number (if you don't have it,be smart and ask)

amidst the other info i have in my brain,
i can't seem to find a name.
no one.

black sheep girl is loner.





p.s deleted previous post.screw it.

whatever i type now is for my own benefit and on no one's behalf but mine.i repeat,SOLELY MINE.

to that "crew",
(and firstly,i'm not naming because i don't want to embarass unaware parties.those who are aware of what's going on,know damn well who they are.)i'm sure some of you will be reading,so you can damn well tell your other friends about this.

so LET'S FACE IT.WE DISLIKE (if not hate) EACH OTHER.don't act all "oh i'm okay with her" with me,when you actually bitch behind my back and go "oh nisa.that bloody bitch".this i know because your dear friend told me.i'm sure i didn't get it wrong because that person likes to play neutral (neutral.HAH).

but yes,whatever.

point is?well,please take note.
stop all the plastic smiles and your pretence-filled-let's-start-talking-to-nisa.stop acting as if you have no bloody issues with me when in actual fact,you do.i'd rather you just walk past me,as if i was invincible.face it.it's a mutual we-dont-like-each-other,so LET'S ACT THE PART.
this is for me not being hypocritical.have a nice day.

it's 2.15am and i'm stuck in this i'm-beyond-stagnant mood.so i'll just put up these pictures,because there havent been for a very long time.

isolate


jagged clouds


past&present


fluffy clouds


sunset

dad: lock the gate.don't take for granted.
bro: it's not taking for granted.we're already having problems with our own door.AND WE'VE GOT KEYS YA KNOW.
dad,bro and myself burst out laughing.

THERE WAS SUN TODAY!!!YAYNESS.
too bad i didn't wake up early,or i would have gone out blading.i have to start the exercise regimen soon!!i weighed myself the other day and i've put on 5kg already (or it could be because i weighed myself right after eating a whole plate of bryani)!

gee.that made me sound very bimbo.i'm not going on the regime because "oh i think i'm fat".i'm doing it because i haven't done any exercise for..since april last year.i get all lethargic easily and mum said it's bad that i suddenly stop exercising,after 4years of OAC and all.I MISS OAC.I MISS DB!

i'm also in MAJOR need of cash now.

ADILIN ISMAIL,QUICK COME ONLINE!I WANT TO GO BLADING TMRRRRRRRR!

moments before,i was physically unfit and emotionally unwell.shaky hands,hunger pangs,slight pounding in temples.almost every part of my body is either injured or aching.half of them was thanks to facial today (if you squirm easily,do not read next para.I WARNED YOU).

it was FUCKING OOOUUUUCCHHHHHHHHHH today.
(think: someone with tweezers-like instruments.they're digging for gold in every pore,pimple,crevice and crany on your face.all that comes out is blood,translucent liquid and whatnot.hence,they keep "searching for gold".excruciating?YES.)

guys ought to go for bloody facials and know what pain really is.some of you tetesterone become pussies at the sight of a mere needle.bloodyhell.try going through one bloody facial la,i bet you'll fucking cry.

THE BITCHES AT CITRA AYU (place where i have my facial) DID NOT DO A FUCKING GOOD JOB.I WENT OUT OF THE PLACE,WITH BLOOD AND SOME LIQUID SHIT COMING OUT FROM MY PIMPLES.NOT ONLY THAT,THEY HAD THE BLOODY CHEEK TO MOCK ME.FROM NOW ON,I'LL JUST GO TO A SKINCARE SPECIALIST.BITCHFUCK.

however,my day lighten with the sight of feez&lina for our lunchdate.went to the airport to meet lin during her break and i finally,filled up the application form for a position at pacific coffee.i hope they'll call soon because i'm in need of -kaching-.

OH YES.I STRAIGHTENED MY HAIR (temporarily for a day) YESTERDAY.due to me having a shortage of cash,i hesitated.then shaz persisted and we were suppose to do it together anywae,so i thought.."why not?".at first it looked very cheenah.after awhile,it looked more natural and i'm now (re)considering rebonding.THANKS SHAZ <3

i'm also now unofficially the messenger of the-2-who-made-that-KENTAL-3day-bet.please remember to thank me on saturday.TSK.and as soon as someone's cable will stop being a bitch,i can get the photo i want.then i can have a full-claimed skin.

I'M OFFICIALLY OUT OF JOB!
AND I LOVE IT!

that is,for now.i've to find a new job,so that i'll have money for personal expenditure.to add to that,i don't like spending my parents' money.nagging conscience + nagging parents.

how many times have you people seen me type,"i'm bored shitless now"?because i wanted to type that out,but realisation hit me that i've typed that out too-many-a-times.simply shows how stagnant my life is.will someone please make me laugh my heart out?


and tell nis you love her..

11jan is a day to jump for joy.because then,i would be out of work which also means that i've quit polar.now however,i've to suffer the remaining hours and pretend that i love "selling hot dogs"(quote from hans).

everyone also take note,that you have permission to slap me if i dont..
1)start dieting.which means sticking to only 1 fast food meal out of the 21meals for the whole week.
2) go roller blading every morning for at least 30mins (unless i'm working the morning shift)

i somehow,unintentionally,deleted all the pictures in my mom's cam(note: not like hans,adobe was being sucha bitch).guess you could call it retribution.

you say you see my smiles.
it's all a charade.

i've not been sleeping well.
i've not been eating well.
i'm emotionally disturbed.
so if i do breakdown abruptly,
don't be suprised.

I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE IT.

please make me fucking better.
i beg of you.
anyone?please?

the new year was too much for me..
from absolute bliss to absolute misery.


thanks for making me feel this way,mom.

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