i've to start the habit of writing dates ending with 'o6,instead of 'o5.oh yes.i've to meet the clique now for countdown.contradicting how i'm going,since i don't believe it's a new year(refering to islamic calendar).plus,i hate the crowds and i know there'll be an ugly sight of mats&minahs and undesirable people.so now you ask.."why is nisa going?"


because it's a gathering for everybody and because i wanna see the fireworks.oh yes.AND to see mado before he leaves for about a month or so(kinda like spending time before your friend leaves?).so yes.i also better get ready now,if i don't wanna be late to meet the rest.

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVES!

p.s
cara loh,
you're missed by all of us already.be safe dahling.

a little convo with my mummy


mum:alamak.abang's birthday tomorrow.
me:oh yaaa.
mum:i shall message him today.
me:mummy!message?!!you can just walk 3 steps to his room and tell him that.


and oh.loooooooooove's in the air.
-giggles and runs away

So I've had 2 day-offs/off-days(whichever).


Basically,it was a cousins day out yesterday.Brought my k.l cousin around town and bugis area,whilst waiting for the rest to come down.Oh yes.We ate at Suntec's Polar and it felt nice not serving for once.Anyways,it was nice catching up and having our usual fun.Kak Cha says we should make it a monthly issue(like if all of us have the time in the first place).
note to kak cha:i want pictures please


Headed over to elias&ebrahim's party afterwards,with no one bothering to pick us up.We could have got lost,if not for me knowing the place myself.It was fun only because there was the music.To those who know what music and random lighting in a darkroom can do to me..hushhush.


And today?
My day off was burnnnnnnnned.yeap.

i saw melv just now.
with messy hair and jersey.
and it was em..
comforting.

you can't blame me that this is late,since i was at work just now..
merry christmasand oh.thank god Aslan didn't die.i was on the verge of crying over his loss.


oh yes.
apparently,my friends who know about my current squeeze,have stereotyped me.

"nis,he's younger and may not be your type."
"you're always going after younger guys."
i shall make it clear now,so none of you can dare come and give me fucking lectures or cliche "advices".yes,all my entire teen life i've been dating the younger opposite sex.for those who don't know this phase in my life,save the shocking faces.


don't you think i want a change and go for the "older guys"?with someone who has more experiences to speak about.with someone who's probably much wiser.but no.here my friends are going on and on,which are what my thoughts are exactly.


i am not considering him or anyone because i am merely not interested in a relationship right now.no flings either,dear.i've realised that i have not the heart to toy with people.so yes.the nest time you meet me,HE will be out of the topic.thankyouverymuch.


and i hate the fucking fonts.

It's ironic how with every effort you make,it saddens me more.I don't expect anything from you and I hope you feel likewise.Oh please stop,love.

You make me wonder why there is even the existence of love.It's like being 'in love' is putting yourself in a viscious cycle,then not being able to get out of it.Then again,one can..after getting your heart scarred or your self-esteem/morale down.


Just when I was beginning to think that singlehood isn't that bad,a person with tetesterone had to spoil it all.To all the rest who has that,no offence.I know not all of you are bad.It's just annoying how people can just come and complicate things,then just go or pretend they didn't do shit.Like "thank you for messing up my already messed up life".


I just want to meet you and be all happy.I want to just know that we could enjoy each other's company and not expect anything in return.I want you to know that i do care even when I tend to act all bitchy/harsh/(insert cruel act here).


I want to be your bestfriend.And the one you'll love endlessly.
The one who has seen you grown from that boy to that man.The one who has seen your tears of joy and sorrow.The one who has seen the best and worst of you.The one who has never left your side and will always be there to grow old with.


Where is this boy?
Will you help me find him?

i went to m'sia,now i'm back.


and now i need to think.because it seems,we're not happy with this let's-be-friends thing.i'm not contented but i'm okay with it.you're far from okay with it.so we've a conflict now.just dandy.


taggers;
syadez; schedule is so unpredictable but i'm having off-days on 19th & 20th.
burning ice; yes it's yours truly.and it is suppose to be messy dear
maryann; we'll catch up soon
mat & dan; so much for low profile.

i need time for self-reflection.
i miss the rocks.
i miss being alone.


did i just type the A-word out.yes.which if you knew me,you'd know i'd go completely nuts without company.so that's a contradiction.then again,i was a loner about 3/4 of my life.


i think i need to sit down and figure out what my needs are,my wants,my desires.and also figure out my feelings and sort love from lust.or i'm just sick of reality and i'd just like to sink into my little bubble for awhile.


i ought to do this soon.


and if only there were more songs like Frou Frou's Let Go or Ginuwine's In Those Jeans.i could listen to songs like these all day,let time say its hello's and goodbye's.

credits to hans for codes.but i might just close this dysfunctional shit anyway.
oh yes.work's good.

me?i'm fucking not.
goodbye.

i took a sharp turn at love.


and oh,i just started work.

chants,
"interview.sheesha.dinner.
tomorrow.tomorrow.tomorrow."

the dreams have stopped and i'm gamed to work.i also ought to start meeting those i haven't seen for awhile/months.sorry to all,especially to the girls(you all know who you all are).
now what else do i have to do?

oh yes.hans,we MUST go for that F-thing okay?oh.that came out quite funny.ah vell.to all those who are going for a ball tomorrow night,do have fun:)

have i mentioned before how loneliness & boredom can really get to me?well it does.then they make me think of all the unnecessary,afterwards twisting them into stupid/brain-stopping/nonsensical pieces of mind-written words in my head.

conclusion:
previous post was a SHITLOAD OF CRAP,
written by yours truly.
you're a sucker if you believe all the parts after the first para about dad.

i've been having my fun with shopping and spending quality time with family.mum and i are strengthening the bond,seeing the other in another light.

However,
i've lost part soul and i've come to start thinking of YOU.you even haunt me in my sleep,boy.the last time this happened to me..well,it wasn't happily ever after. do i still love you?
Will it even matter?NO.

because i don't know who you are.
who you were..
when we got to know each other.
when we got together.
when we broke up.
when we tried being friends.
when we became mere acquaintances.
even now.

because it'll only be disastrous.
lies.
empty promises.
manipulated love.
heartbreak after heartbreak.


i only wish there was a different you.

25o788;NP-HLM
[msn] silverbubble_gal@hotmail.com

-
I always wonder what it'd be like..
To be able to sleep amongst the clouds.

i've to start the habit of writing dates ending with 'o6,instead of 'o5.oh yes.i've to meet the clique now for countdown.contradicting how i'm going,since i don't believe it's a new year(refering to islamic calendar).plus,i hate the crowds and i know there'll be an ugly sight of mats&minahs and undesirable people.so now you ask.."why is nisa going?"


because it's a gathering for everybody and because i wanna see the fireworks.oh yes.AND to see mado before he leaves for about a month or so(kinda like spending time before your friend leaves?).so yes.i also better get ready now,if i don't wanna be late to meet the rest.

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVES!

p.s
cara loh,
you're missed by all of us already.be safe dahling.

a little convo with my mummy


mum:alamak.abang's birthday tomorrow.
me:oh yaaa.
mum:i shall message him today.
me:mummy!message?!!you can just walk 3 steps to his room and tell him that.


and oh.loooooooooove's in the air.
-giggles and runs away

So I've had 2 day-offs/off-days(whichever).


Basically,it was a cousins day out yesterday.Brought my k.l cousin around town and bugis area,whilst waiting for the rest to come down.Oh yes.We ate at Suntec's Polar and it felt nice not serving for once.Anyways,it was nice catching up and having our usual fun.Kak Cha says we should make it a monthly issue(like if all of us have the time in the first place).
note to kak cha:i want pictures please


Headed over to elias&ebrahim's party afterwards,with no one bothering to pick us up.We could have got lost,if not for me knowing the place myself.It was fun only because there was the music.To those who know what music and random lighting in a darkroom can do to me..hushhush.


And today?
My day off was burnnnnnnnned.yeap.

i saw melv just now.
with messy hair and jersey.
and it was em..
comforting.

you can't blame me that this is late,since i was at work just now..
merry christmasand oh.thank god Aslan didn't die.i was on the verge of crying over his loss.


oh yes.
apparently,my friends who know about my current squeeze,have stereotyped me.

"nis,he's younger and may not be your type."
"you're always going after younger guys."
i shall make it clear now,so none of you can dare come and give me fucking lectures or cliche "advices".yes,all my entire teen life i've been dating the younger opposite sex.for those who don't know this phase in my life,save the shocking faces.


don't you think i want a change and go for the "older guys"?with someone who has more experiences to speak about.with someone who's probably much wiser.but no.here my friends are going on and on,which are what my thoughts are exactly.


i am not considering him or anyone because i am merely not interested in a relationship right now.no flings either,dear.i've realised that i have not the heart to toy with people.so yes.the nest time you meet me,HE will be out of the topic.thankyouverymuch.


and i hate the fucking fonts.

It's ironic how with every effort you make,it saddens me more.I don't expect anything from you and I hope you feel likewise.Oh please stop,love.

You make me wonder why there is even the existence of love.It's like being 'in love' is putting yourself in a viscious cycle,then not being able to get out of it.Then again,one can..after getting your heart scarred or your self-esteem/morale down.


Just when I was beginning to think that singlehood isn't that bad,a person with tetesterone had to spoil it all.To all the rest who has that,no offence.I know not all of you are bad.It's just annoying how people can just come and complicate things,then just go or pretend they didn't do shit.Like "thank you for messing up my already messed up life".


I just want to meet you and be all happy.I want to just know that we could enjoy each other's company and not expect anything in return.I want you to know that i do care even when I tend to act all bitchy/harsh/(insert cruel act here).


I want to be your bestfriend.And the one you'll love endlessly.
The one who has seen you grown from that boy to that man.The one who has seen your tears of joy and sorrow.The one who has seen the best and worst of you.The one who has never left your side and will always be there to grow old with.


Where is this boy?
Will you help me find him?

i went to m'sia,now i'm back.


and now i need to think.because it seems,we're not happy with this let's-be-friends thing.i'm not contented but i'm okay with it.you're far from okay with it.so we've a conflict now.just dandy.


taggers;
syadez; schedule is so unpredictable but i'm having off-days on 19th & 20th.
burning ice; yes it's yours truly.and it is suppose to be messy dear
maryann; we'll catch up soon
mat & dan; so much for low profile.

i need time for self-reflection.
i miss the rocks.
i miss being alone.


did i just type the A-word out.yes.which if you knew me,you'd know i'd go completely nuts without company.so that's a contradiction.then again,i was a loner about 3/4 of my life.


i think i need to sit down and figure out what my needs are,my wants,my desires.and also figure out my feelings and sort love from lust.or i'm just sick of reality and i'd just like to sink into my little bubble for awhile.


i ought to do this soon.


and if only there were more songs like Frou Frou's Let Go or Ginuwine's In Those Jeans.i could listen to songs like these all day,let time say its hello's and goodbye's.

credits to hans for codes.but i might just close this dysfunctional shit anyway.
oh yes.work's good.

me?i'm fucking not.
goodbye.

i took a sharp turn at love.


and oh,i just started work.

chants,
"interview.sheesha.dinner.
tomorrow.tomorrow.tomorrow."

the dreams have stopped and i'm gamed to work.i also ought to start meeting those i haven't seen for awhile/months.sorry to all,especially to the girls(you all know who you all are).
now what else do i have to do?

oh yes.hans,we MUST go for that F-thing okay?oh.that came out quite funny.ah vell.to all those who are going for a ball tomorrow night,do have fun:)

have i mentioned before how loneliness & boredom can really get to me?well it does.then they make me think of all the unnecessary,afterwards twisting them into stupid/brain-stopping/nonsensical pieces of mind-written words in my head.

conclusion:
previous post was a SHITLOAD OF CRAP,
written by yours truly.
you're a sucker if you believe all the parts after the first para about dad.

i've been having my fun with shopping and spending quality time with family.mum and i are strengthening the bond,seeing the other in another light.

However,
i've lost part soul and i've come to start thinking of YOU.you even haunt me in my sleep,boy.the last time this happened to me..well,it wasn't happily ever after. do i still love you?
Will it even matter?NO.

because i don't know who you are.
who you were..
when we got to know each other.
when we got together.
when we broke up.
when we tried being friends.
when we became mere acquaintances.
even now.

because it'll only be disastrous.
lies.
empty promises.
manipulated love.
heartbreak after heartbreak.


i only wish there was a different you.

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