DEAR EVERYONE,

I'VE BEEN YAPPING TOO MUCH ABOUT THE EX-BOYFRIEND.SO MUCH SO,THAT I'M LIKE A BAD CD GONE FUCKING WRONG.SO YOU KNOW WHAT?I WON'T BOTHER TELLING ANYMORE.BECAUSE,
a) NO ONE WANTS TO KNOW
b) NO ONE WANTS TO HELP
c) NO ONE GIVES A FUCK
d) NO ONE GIVES TWO FUCKS
e) IT'S ALL OF THE ABOVE

SO I DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO HELP OR MENTION ABOUT THIS ISSUE.I'M DANDY AND I'LL SOMEHOW FUCKING COPE AND SOLVE IT ON MY OWN.

THANK ME.I'M DOING EVERYONE A FUCKING FAVOUR.

Against the lines,
I followed through and through.
My thoughts slipped,
the lines stopped.
I smeared you all over,
like a bad lipstick.
There the soft whites lay,
yet I wouldn't wipe it off.
Because my eyes filled,
washing the stain away.
You're my bad lipstick,boy.
My bad lipstick.

It became crystal clear,
that I was needed for all the wrong reasons.
So I tasted my eyes' salty water again.

earlier on,i went blading along the streets of katong and marine parade.through semi-darkness,with lush fm playing.
it was..comforting.

oh yes.added a new link,ashraf.
nope.it's not the ex-boyfriend (his is asyraf).






let the moment repeat itself.
i never really wanted you to go anyway.
i amore you.

{add} i just to know about another who turned legal..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY,LIYANA!

{/add}

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY,LIS!


we'll never understand the other.
so let's just stop trying.
sometimes certain things are meant to be left alone.
so smile,because somehow it's gonna be okay.

yesterday,

HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY,HISHAM!

today,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY,FEEZ! (legal legal)

SP called yesterday.no interviews (or not yet).
just had to pass documents to assure them of my CCA.

head to town afterwards with arif.i couldn't stop laughing and it's amazing what cousin love and nonsense can do to you.you guys ought to meet him and you'll know what i mean.

i'm so nervous about the JPSAE and JAE.i wanna go to TP so badly,with a course that i've got interest in.the rest of the polys are just far/wasted/old/makes you not want to go school.i'm crossing my fingers and toes..i hope they call soon.


i hope we meet soon.
over and done with.

you became a source of lingering words,
with some even honey-coated.
meaning they did not bring,
just turtle-slow misery jumping to be injected.
i'll just sit here and wait in silence,
watching the hands fly from number to number,
hope gleaming in my eyes.
it's miss random to you.

say byebye to 98737968,
hello to 91260698.
effective from 20feb onwards.


"i'm not crazy,
i'm just a little impaired,
i know right now you don't care,
but soon enough you're gonna think of me.
and how i used to be..me."

-Unwell by Matchbox 20

"i don't know."
"i don't know."
"i don't know."

besides all the pretty chocolates you've given me,that's all i ever get from you.

so now i've no idea why you even bother coming back,wanting to be "friends" and all.giving our relationship the status of "it's complicated" would be an understatement.you brought forth this issue,yet now i'm the one dealing with it..again.

AND NO,DON'T YOU GO "YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO CARE" TO ME.
i care because i like things to be proper,being the perfectionist i am.it's a bad trait when it comes to sticky issues like this one.i like things to have a closure before continuing,something which you have yet to give.


so thanks alot.
thanks for (nothing).



{add}
I WANT AN EMO HAIR BOYFRIEND.(or toyboy)
ANYONE INTRO?
{/add}

And the pretty little hearts,
have been sitting in the cold for 10months now.

oh please,boy.
stop your drama.
it is truely overrated.
and yes,boy.so are you.

firstly,thank you shazawani begum karim for the awfully sweet entry.do always keep in mind that true friends will never leave.i'll always be right here,never too far away.there'll always be this unbreakable thread of love between us.your listening ear,your shoulder to cry on,your punching bag..your best friend <3

secondly,for the happy kental couple..CONGRATS.

other than that,i've finally completed my JAE and am left with JPSAE.there's still the jackass ex-boyfriend and portfolio to be done with yan.i'm sick yet again,with a bad throat and cough.



with these random notes,
and this trigger happiness.

.

this is my 215th post.
okay random.


DAE's done,leaving only JAE and JPSAE left.all the thinking (and more to come),have caused my braincells to deplete..if you have no idea what i'm saying,don't really bother.know only when you've completed your o's because then,you HAVE to know.







DUDE,stop being a jackass already.
bloody ex-boyfriend.

eng-b4
emaths-b3
sci-b3
history-b4
art-c6

L1R4=20
L1R4+CCA=16



anything else?ASK ME.
i've to go think of 12 bloody courses,that i'm suppose to have passion for,now.i advise you to not talk to me at this point of time,unless you've something important/constructive/smart to say.i might not be listening though,or i just don't want to.worse to worse,i'll blast right back.
the warning has been given.


alex&tiff,thank you for the rusty clutch.i love you both very much.

it's time for the butterflies,
a time for uncertainty.
so here i go again...

good luck,takers.
xoxo.

{p/s thank you to all,esp mary ann.}

my stomach's churning,
my heart seems to race,
my system feels shaken.
FUCK.

then again,it could all be in the head.
or,the side effects of the drugs.


taggers;
fahms; i'm sick but generally good.
fz; DUH.because you're mr nice guy and i'm the bitch,remember?:)
mary ann; thank you.but...what courage,again?

it's 7.30 and i'm wide awake,after having my dosage of pills.YES I'M SICK.it didn't have to take a genius to figure that out,right?anyway,i didn't have enough sleep the night before because of a bad throat.i went to the doc because i was afraid i might get thonsilitis (inflammation of thonsils),since it happened before.found out i've a slight fever as well.

i finally watched Memoirs of A Geisha,with shaz and feez AND 2jackets.YET,i was shivering my ass off.we didn't know the movie would be that long,leaving me and feez wanting to leave 3/4 into the movie.we got out and i swear,i wanted to just faint right there and then.we took silly neoprints afterwards (well actually it was just me being all silly).the girls said i really looked as if i was forced to smile and all.

i think the painkillers give me a high.because everytime i take them,i act all silly.heh.maybe they can double as anti-depressant pills.weee.


taggers;
lin; i think it's the spammer thing,babe.heh.
shopaholic; i guess they find self-confidence in spamming.
nigel; yes.thank you,love.
ur bestie; i love you too:)

i love you all.for a minute,i was wondering where everyone was.


{p/s we're friends now.or whatever thing he calls it or wants.he actually assumed i wanted him back.YEAH RIGHT BALLS.oh yeah.he also wanted to meet yesterday and (obviously) i gave a flat NO.}

so there he went,apologising for leaving and then asking whether we could be friends again.GEE.i didn't even know whether we were friends in the very first place.it's been days after that now,i didn't think about that issue.i didn't have time and partly,i don't want to.

sorry doesn't really make everything better,neither being friends just because he's "feeling bad" for leaving.he said being there for me is part of a relationship but there he was contradicting himself,by saying "but i'm not ready for a relationship" before that.

so i'll just text him tomorrow,

"we should just fuck the idea of being friends.i don't need you to be sorry and we've BOTH been fine after a month.so goodbye."
then again, he's english is bad.so i don't know whether he'll understand.i usually would rather making things clear to people face-to-face,but in this case..that's not gonna happen.OKAY SLAP ME.WHO GIVES A FUCK.i'll just say that.like lene said,"either way nobody is getting any sugar".

first and for most...

HAPPY 18th SHAHRIZAL! (legal,boy.)
happy 17th to fadhilah as well.
plus plus plus,

HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY TO ALEX & TIFFANY!
may your wishes,hopes and dreams come true.wishing you all everlasting love and happiness and yadayadayada (i'm not good at such).much hugs,kisses and love..from yours truly.


i am also a happylappy girl myself,because..
I GOT MYSELF A PHONE!
and also gave a treat to the december babies in my family (parents + brother,leaving me the odd one out) to siam kitchen for dinner yesterday.

saturday was NP and Chingay day.i got a ticket from charlene's friends,but we (obviously) didn't stay long.it was a freak show la!neon green and orange,aluminium foil,people with wool and glitter and YUCK.and don't you come and tell me that i should appreciate them and be in their shoes and all,because i was in Chingay before.

"at this rate,i'll fuck someone soon." -me to lene
inside joke,people.

oh yes.i might be changing to a new number (this is sad because i've been using 98737968 for like..6years!) soon,so do keep a look out because i don't think i'll be messaging everyone.i haven't had enough shut eye.goodnight living things.

your return was unnecessary,boy.





{p/s thank you for the picture,fz.his cable finally worked after 31029471735695 years.tsk}

i had a $10 haircut which took 3hours today (note: haircut w/o wash & blow).

we (lis,shaz and me) were also waiting for feez,who was having her highlights done.SHE LOOKS LIKE A DOLL,with her highlights and her curls defined.we lunched at sakura and went to parkway afterwards.lis left shortly after and shaz,after our starbucks routine.i also helped feez with her shopping today.heh.us girls had fun today.thank you loves.


and guess who messaged me today?mister.
suprise suprise."nisa"out of all names.RIGHT BALLS.
and silly us made a bet.2300hrs tomorrow.we'll seeeee.

{add}i just lost the bet.bloodyhell.{/add}

i took pictures from home and inside of home,mostly black and white.mum currently doesn't trust me with the SD card (gee),but i'll try to get it posted up soon.

have i mention that i love being behind the lens?
and fz,your cheesecake was not bad.cheers man.





I don't like to be alone at night
And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you

25o788;NP-HLM
[msn] silverbubble_gal@hotmail.com

-
I always wonder what it'd be like..
To be able to sleep amongst the clouds.

DEAR EVERYONE,

I'VE BEEN YAPPING TOO MUCH ABOUT THE EX-BOYFRIEND.SO MUCH SO,THAT I'M LIKE A BAD CD GONE FUCKING WRONG.SO YOU KNOW WHAT?I WON'T BOTHER TELLING ANYMORE.BECAUSE,
a) NO ONE WANTS TO KNOW
b) NO ONE WANTS TO HELP
c) NO ONE GIVES A FUCK
d) NO ONE GIVES TWO FUCKS
e) IT'S ALL OF THE ABOVE

SO I DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO HELP OR MENTION ABOUT THIS ISSUE.I'M DANDY AND I'LL SOMEHOW FUCKING COPE AND SOLVE IT ON MY OWN.

THANK ME.I'M DOING EVERYONE A FUCKING FAVOUR.

Against the lines,
I followed through and through.
My thoughts slipped,
the lines stopped.
I smeared you all over,
like a bad lipstick.
There the soft whites lay,
yet I wouldn't wipe it off.
Because my eyes filled,
washing the stain away.
You're my bad lipstick,boy.
My bad lipstick.

It became crystal clear,
that I was needed for all the wrong reasons.
So I tasted my eyes' salty water again.

earlier on,i went blading along the streets of katong and marine parade.through semi-darkness,with lush fm playing.
it was..comforting.

oh yes.added a new link,ashraf.
nope.it's not the ex-boyfriend (his is asyraf).






let the moment repeat itself.
i never really wanted you to go anyway.
i amore you.

{add} i just to know about another who turned legal..

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY,LIYANA!

{/add}

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY,LIS!


we'll never understand the other.
so let's just stop trying.
sometimes certain things are meant to be left alone.
so smile,because somehow it's gonna be okay.

yesterday,

HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY,HISHAM!

today,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY,FEEZ! (legal legal)

SP called yesterday.no interviews (or not yet).
just had to pass documents to assure them of my CCA.

head to town afterwards with arif.i couldn't stop laughing and it's amazing what cousin love and nonsense can do to you.you guys ought to meet him and you'll know what i mean.

i'm so nervous about the JPSAE and JAE.i wanna go to TP so badly,with a course that i've got interest in.the rest of the polys are just far/wasted/old/makes you not want to go school.i'm crossing my fingers and toes..i hope they call soon.


i hope we meet soon.
over and done with.

you became a source of lingering words,
with some even honey-coated.
meaning they did not bring,
just turtle-slow misery jumping to be injected.
i'll just sit here and wait in silence,
watching the hands fly from number to number,
hope gleaming in my eyes.
it's miss random to you.

say byebye to 98737968,
hello to 91260698.
effective from 20feb onwards.


"i'm not crazy,
i'm just a little impaired,
i know right now you don't care,
but soon enough you're gonna think of me.
and how i used to be..me."

-Unwell by Matchbox 20

"i don't know."
"i don't know."
"i don't know."

besides all the pretty chocolates you've given me,that's all i ever get from you.

so now i've no idea why you even bother coming back,wanting to be "friends" and all.giving our relationship the status of "it's complicated" would be an understatement.you brought forth this issue,yet now i'm the one dealing with it..again.

AND NO,DON'T YOU GO "YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO CARE" TO ME.
i care because i like things to be proper,being the perfectionist i am.it's a bad trait when it comes to sticky issues like this one.i like things to have a closure before continuing,something which you have yet to give.


so thanks alot.
thanks for (nothing).



{add}
I WANT AN EMO HAIR BOYFRIEND.(or toyboy)
ANYONE INTRO?
{/add}

And the pretty little hearts,
have been sitting in the cold for 10months now.

oh please,boy.
stop your drama.
it is truely overrated.
and yes,boy.so are you.

firstly,thank you shazawani begum karim for the awfully sweet entry.do always keep in mind that true friends will never leave.i'll always be right here,never too far away.there'll always be this unbreakable thread of love between us.your listening ear,your shoulder to cry on,your punching bag..your best friend <3

secondly,for the happy kental couple..CONGRATS.

other than that,i've finally completed my JAE and am left with JPSAE.there's still the jackass ex-boyfriend and portfolio to be done with yan.i'm sick yet again,with a bad throat and cough.



with these random notes,
and this trigger happiness.

.

this is my 215th post.
okay random.


DAE's done,leaving only JAE and JPSAE left.all the thinking (and more to come),have caused my braincells to deplete..if you have no idea what i'm saying,don't really bother.know only when you've completed your o's because then,you HAVE to know.







DUDE,stop being a jackass already.
bloody ex-boyfriend.

eng-b4
emaths-b3
sci-b3
history-b4
art-c6

L1R4=20
L1R4+CCA=16



anything else?ASK ME.
i've to go think of 12 bloody courses,that i'm suppose to have passion for,now.i advise you to not talk to me at this point of time,unless you've something important/constructive/smart to say.i might not be listening though,or i just don't want to.worse to worse,i'll blast right back.
the warning has been given.


alex&tiff,thank you for the rusty clutch.i love you both very much.

it's time for the butterflies,
a time for uncertainty.
so here i go again...

good luck,takers.
xoxo.

{p/s thank you to all,esp mary ann.}

my stomach's churning,
my heart seems to race,
my system feels shaken.
FUCK.

then again,it could all be in the head.
or,the side effects of the drugs.


taggers;
fahms; i'm sick but generally good.
fz; DUH.because you're mr nice guy and i'm the bitch,remember?:)
mary ann; thank you.but...what courage,again?

it's 7.30 and i'm wide awake,after having my dosage of pills.YES I'M SICK.it didn't have to take a genius to figure that out,right?anyway,i didn't have enough sleep the night before because of a bad throat.i went to the doc because i was afraid i might get thonsilitis (inflammation of thonsils),since it happened before.found out i've a slight fever as well.

i finally watched Memoirs of A Geisha,with shaz and feez AND 2jackets.YET,i was shivering my ass off.we didn't know the movie would be that long,leaving me and feez wanting to leave 3/4 into the movie.we got out and i swear,i wanted to just faint right there and then.we took silly neoprints afterwards (well actually it was just me being all silly).the girls said i really looked as if i was forced to smile and all.

i think the painkillers give me a high.because everytime i take them,i act all silly.heh.maybe they can double as anti-depressant pills.weee.


taggers;
lin; i think it's the spammer thing,babe.heh.
shopaholic; i guess they find self-confidence in spamming.
nigel; yes.thank you,love.
ur bestie; i love you too:)

i love you all.for a minute,i was wondering where everyone was.


{p/s we're friends now.or whatever thing he calls it or wants.he actually assumed i wanted him back.YEAH RIGHT BALLS.oh yeah.he also wanted to meet yesterday and (obviously) i gave a flat NO.}

so there he went,apologising for leaving and then asking whether we could be friends again.GEE.i didn't even know whether we were friends in the very first place.it's been days after that now,i didn't think about that issue.i didn't have time and partly,i don't want to.

sorry doesn't really make everything better,neither being friends just because he's "feeling bad" for leaving.he said being there for me is part of a relationship but there he was contradicting himself,by saying "but i'm not ready for a relationship" before that.

so i'll just text him tomorrow,

"we should just fuck the idea of being friends.i don't need you to be sorry and we've BOTH been fine after a month.so goodbye."
then again, he's english is bad.so i don't know whether he'll understand.i usually would rather making things clear to people face-to-face,but in this case..that's not gonna happen.OKAY SLAP ME.WHO GIVES A FUCK.i'll just say that.like lene said,"either way nobody is getting any sugar".

first and for most...

HAPPY 18th SHAHRIZAL! (legal,boy.)
happy 17th to fadhilah as well.
plus plus plus,

HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY TO ALEX & TIFFANY!
may your wishes,hopes and dreams come true.wishing you all everlasting love and happiness and yadayadayada (i'm not good at such).much hugs,kisses and love..from yours truly.


i am also a happylappy girl myself,because..
I GOT MYSELF A PHONE!
and also gave a treat to the december babies in my family (parents + brother,leaving me the odd one out) to siam kitchen for dinner yesterday.

saturday was NP and Chingay day.i got a ticket from charlene's friends,but we (obviously) didn't stay long.it was a freak show la!neon green and orange,aluminium foil,people with wool and glitter and YUCK.and don't you come and tell me that i should appreciate them and be in their shoes and all,because i was in Chingay before.

"at this rate,i'll fuck someone soon." -me to lene
inside joke,people.

oh yes.i might be changing to a new number (this is sad because i've been using 98737968 for like..6years!) soon,so do keep a look out because i don't think i'll be messaging everyone.i haven't had enough shut eye.goodnight living things.

your return was unnecessary,boy.





{p/s thank you for the picture,fz.his cable finally worked after 31029471735695 years.tsk}

i had a $10 haircut which took 3hours today (note: haircut w/o wash & blow).

we (lis,shaz and me) were also waiting for feez,who was having her highlights done.SHE LOOKS LIKE A DOLL,with her highlights and her curls defined.we lunched at sakura and went to parkway afterwards.lis left shortly after and shaz,after our starbucks routine.i also helped feez with her shopping today.heh.us girls had fun today.thank you loves.


and guess who messaged me today?mister.
suprise suprise."nisa"out of all names.RIGHT BALLS.
and silly us made a bet.2300hrs tomorrow.we'll seeeee.

{add}i just lost the bet.bloodyhell.{/add}

i took pictures from home and inside of home,mostly black and white.mum currently doesn't trust me with the SD card (gee),but i'll try to get it posted up soon.

have i mention that i love being behind the lens?
and fz,your cheesecake was not bad.cheers man.





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And I don't like to hear I'm wrong when I'm right
And I don't like to have the rain on my shoes
But I do love you
But I do love you

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