♥
Saturday, April 29, 2006
I haven't heard the 4-letter word from Ashlee Simpson's song title,in a very long time.Usually it's something to dwell upon or to forget when it gets too much to handle.The upcoming days however,I've decided how much that I don't need a boy to make me happy.
To even begin with,no boy's probably ever going to get me loving like I did then.Maybe he did.And maybe it was due to me being naive and inability to understand what we even had then.For that,as long as he made me happy,it would equate to love.
Sad,isn't it?
Hold on a sec.Sympathy and/or matchmaking me with a friend of yours is what I least need right now.
However,there's the priority of doing well in my studies.I really want to get a scholarship,so I can do that 3years in Lanscape Architecture.Yeah,big ambitions.
Think I should enlarge my circle of friends?I think I've already done that.So much so that it can be quite difficult to remember everyone's names.Don't worry Nadj,I didn't forget you.what a sweetheart he is for letting me sleep after nightwalk.
I do need a malay boy who I can converse in English though.Those who I can actually sit around with and talk about issues,that only the eccentric us will udnerstand.smirks.
I'm hungry.I shall call Mommy to buy food.So long.
♥
Friday, April 28, 2006
This weekend seems to be jam-packed with stuff.I don't know about tomorrow but Sunday,I'll be going out with Melv&Co to celebrate his birthday.Met them today as well for our usual game of pool.
Oh yes.Clarence Leow can be such a turn-on.
He has solid hard 8pack.Too bad no girl's going to enjoy that,since he "
Prefer to flirt around:)".And I like the feel of my finger,stroking the jersey-kinda material aginst his body.I like the material.
Richard Gere has lost to him.*shockshock*
♥
Thursday, April 27, 2006
advance 17th birthday wish..
HAPPY 7teen BIRTHDAY TO ADILIN ISMAIL AND JARED PETER DE MELLO.
i've yet to get melvynmartinchong's present.
i need to get something special.oh damn.
♥
Canoeing
trial training yesterday has made my entire body aching all over.There's also the shuddering thought that that it was only 1/3 of the actual trainings.WTF.
"Training" (the 2.4km,120push-ups,40squats,20sets of jumping-jacks and sprinting) was obviously too intensive for me.Counting the fact that I've only had any form of fitness twice in the entire of my 1 and half years of not schooling.
Creative and Applied Thinking Skills (CATS) was simply unnecessary.I simply think that it all still comes down to each individual,when creativity and responsibility are concerned.I can;t believe NP made it a bloody module.
On a lighter note,my SW (or as farhan calls it,P.E) is Netball.The bad news is,we're all starting from basics and that I actually wanted HipHop/Tennis.It was a mad rush for the sports that you wanted.As for my CCA,I've not decided.
And guess what?
Today was the first day that I skipped class,since not even 9.15am could save me.I did went to get a MC though.
Kental,I know.
OH BLOODY HELL.MY LEGS HURT NAK MAMPOS!
BODOH PUNYE CANOEING.
♥
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
My posts are paragraphs after paragraphs of words.Wouldn't suprise me if someone went head-slamming on their keyboards suddenly,whilst reading my entries.This thing needs more splish&splashes of visuals.Soooooooon.
I want to play Netball soon!
I want/NEED to keep myself busy!
I HAVE HAVE HAVE to get a schloarship (however you spell it)!
Don't ask me why I'm suddenly so driven.It's a question I've yet to answer myself.
♥
School was VERY short today and I found out that I've to print out massive amounts of lecture notes.Dangs.Why can't they just issue out the modules in binds and sell it to us?
SW (Sports and Wellness aka P.E) and IS module (Creative thinking skills).Ought to be interesting,though I still don't know what I'd be doing for SW.Hopefully it's netball or something.
Shit I'm late for town.Lynnette's birthday,remember?
♥
Monday, April 24, 2006
Someone turns 7teen tomorrow,so here's a heads up..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,LYNNETTE HUANG(GEMOK)!Overly-concerned parents driven by paranoia is torture.One is quite enough but imagine having two.I ought to learn how to play mute/deaf/both.Let all the ranting go into one ear and out the other in a split second.
First day of school today and I couldn't stop laughing.I had the wonderful company,and I predict more to come,of Jonathan,Elfie and Iqbal.The malay guys uttered nothing close to sensible,except when it came to doing the worksheets.Speaking of work,I started off school with learning the basics of Chemistry (i.e Atoms and Mol Concept).Just when all of us thought we wouldn't see anything resembling our secondary years.
Practical was all cute and amusing with us all "dressed up" with lab coats,goggles and disposal gloves.And I swear Ngee Ann has alot of money.With every usage of a disposal dropper,you can dispose them after use.
Meeting the guys at 7.30 tomorrow,making me wonder why everyone comes to class so bloody early.I finish at 12pm tomorrow and it's Gelare Day!Oh the joy.Have I mentioned that I am beginning to find school pleasant?
My brother and mum's watching
Dia,while I can hardly bother.Bloody soap.
♥
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Farhan,remind me not to join NP's student union ever.
It sucks to know that people there would only bother having a decent conversation with you,if a) you could possibly be prom king/queen or b) you have money to go on an impulse shopping spree at ZARA's.
Now that irks me.
It's the opposite for my LSCT people.
I ADORE THEM!
Mind you,we aren't a bunch of nerds who indulge in reading about morphology or CATS (at least,not all of us).We not only have our own eye candy,but they also look at you for what you are.
Have I also mentioned that one of the graduates resembles the last ex-boyfriend slightly?I also find his name amusing,since it's so formal.Think "Mahathir".heh.
My throat's sore from all the cheering in camp and it's not getting any better.The day after camp itself,I didn't have the chance to stop talking.I had a shopping spree with mum and she made me answer to all her fashion dilemmas.She's so "ON" these days.Even wanted to take me to the movies after shopping,but it was
malam jumaat.I think i'm watching Ice Age 2 with her this tuesday though.I FINISH AT 12pm ON TUESDAYS!
As for the CCA fiesta on friday,refer to
Farhan's blog.I reckon whatever we did in the LT was similar.The difference,was probably the fact that i have a lecturer named mr chang,who is culturally inclined.Plus,he talks in a way that he reminds me of Jackie Chan's uncle in the cartoon series.Hilarious!Jonathan and I felt that it was too bad he didn't teach us any of our modules.
Oh yeah.All the schools had a telematch afterwards and again,this you can refer to
Farhan's blog.
Yesterday,I went to the infamous island,where married men find their third part-y/-ies.It's scary how the locals can differentiate us foreigners real quickly.Like when you if you're in need of a cab,fret not.Stand by the roadside for a mere 10seconds and -poof- 7cabs (not to mention mini vans and private cars as well) would be at your service straight away.It almost felt like hitch-hiking.
I'm a little sick now,due to the bad pollution there.Too many people fagging around,even in the public transport.Oh yes.Don't be suprised if along the way,you'd be sharing a cab with a stranger (even though there's already 5 of you,incl. driver,in the car).
Arif did most of the shopping there while yours truly came back,with a black tee that said "smart girl".heh.I need a bag for school.Damn.
Speaking of school,here's the time table.
monday: 9am-4pm
tuesday: 8am-12pm
wednesday: 1pm-5pm
thursday: 9am-5pm
friday: 10am-6pm
Most of my lectures are in the classrooms.damn.And why the world are one of my practicals being conducted in the LT?
{p/s}
My dear bestfriend,I'm sorry I wasn't able to join you and Rajiv yesterday.Will see you two soon okay?Muchlove.
♥
Saturday, April 22, 2006
leaving my link at farhan's blog was done intentionally.if it's not obvious enough for you,well here.you see,leaving my link there will inevitably let others come to my blog.why the sudden re-occurrence of an audience,you ask...simple.
because that's how blogging works.a blog would only be a blog,at least even feel like a blog,when you know that there's an avid audience knowing the latest hoo-haa you've created.
it's a
love-hate relationship between the audience and the blogger,this i just found out.
if it's kept a secret,then it might just become a white elephant later on.you'll not bother updating,since you know that it's not as if anyone's reading..which leads to you hardly updating.so i guess if there's anything personal to be written,then it'll just have to stay as draft.
i'm contented with life now and school looks pleasantly good.i think i've found a new bestfriend,jonathan.will update soon,but now..i've got to head to batam for shopping(if there is even anything to shop for).so yes.
welcome back,dear fans:)
♥
Sunday, April 16, 2006
For the first time ever,me and best friend caught a movie on impulse.That is,the first time for both of us even on our own."Take The Lead" would only be an a-okay movie with an a-ookay storyline,if it weren't for the dancing scenes.Makes you want to learn all the twist and turns of every dance existing.
I don't think I'm ever going to have a "proper" shopping spree.Everytime I go out,I end up going home with only 1 measely bag each time.Today,I only got a pretty brown cardigan for $15.90 @ Isetan.
There's the need for the shopping spree.The ecstacy of holding the many bags to indicate that one did have a shopping spree,is a mighty feeling.For me,at least.I know how shallow it sounds but -shrugs-
Oh yes.The whole point of this entry is to tell you about the FOC camp.Despite the lack of enthuism from my group,it was all joy and tears.Suprising what camps can do to people who hardly know anothers' name.Bonds were definitely made,since tears were shed when camp broke.Sentimental.Alright,I did cry.
Speaking of camps,there's another for me tomorrow.This time by the School of Life Sciences and Chemical Technology,which my course is under.And again,there's packing to be done.So last minute.
Nighters,love.Takecare.
♥
Sunday, April 09, 2006
It's a bittersweet thing,now that my ugly red friend is here.At least I know it won't come in the middle of camp.But how am I going to cope in camp now?Also,I haven't even gotten the bag out,what's more pack.
My cousin's other grandfather passed away yesterday.
al-fatihahThe past few days have been exhausting and I'm sure it'll continue for the next 2weeks.There's also definitely gonna be change soon.I'm excited,yet also unsure as to how it's all going to affect me on the whole.
I need to calm myself down.Maybe I will just go for spa,as what mama mentioned.There's also shopping to be done.And no,I don't have any other weekdays free next week:(
♥
Saturday, April 08, 2006
when you have mak's with good company,what more can you ask for?
there are way too many of the boys who's names start with "H".hamdi,haziq,halim.next time,i'll just poke them and go "eh boy" or something.and saying how hilarious they are,will be an understatement.heh
highlight of the day:
LIN GOT SCARED BY A CAT!!!HAHAHAHHA.we really ought to do something for mr rizal soon.he even belanje farhan,aka self-invited,with a smile(SHAME FARHAN SHAME).oh yes.lin was having her usual bitch fit about the
boncet people(well they self-proclaimed).
i'm so beat,hafiz is so sweet.oooohhh it rhymes.
shopping on friday please.
♥
Thursday, April 06, 2006
topman has more of a variety for me than what topshop has to offer.why oh why is there even such an irony?i mean,our male counterparts(excl. the overly metrosexual and the halfs) hardly bother looking good.the gut's saying that sooner or later,i'll have men's clothes.
from the coming weekends till the next 2weeks,i think i'll be busy.i do mean busy to the abnormal extent,since i have been rotting my mind senseless at home.
there's the rizal-ers gathering which i
will be going(lin take note!) and the upcoming camps and orientations.speaking of camps,have i mention that i have a bad feeling about camp?i don't think it's gonna be as pleasant as it should be(mental note: me shall pretend to have a delirious stomachache and go home if it turns bad).
i've yet to pack my stuff.and speaking of which,i just found out that all the camping stuff are under heaps of heavy boxes.many heavy boxes.there's also the washing of my stinky shoes to do.
suddenly,camping isn't a pretty thought.maybe i won't go.
♥
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
-kachingkachingkaching-
me is gonna be a very very happy girl.i can't believe mommy actually gave me a hundred to spend for shopping.this is teh first time ever.guess she's busy than usual,since usually..it's either my own money that's being used or she's with me for shopping.i sure sound like a spoilt brat now.ah vell.
oh mummy dear,you're lovelovelove.
i realised i don't have shoes for camp.plus,the idea of my period colliding with camp is very disturbing.oh please please come now.ugh.shopping anyone???
♥
Monday, April 03, 2006
Everyday,we sin.Ya Allah,forgive us.
(I fear for saying things wrongly and for that,Ya Allah..Please forgive me.)
Islam is the most glorious thing on this planet,even though I've yet to master even the basics.I'm terrified of no other but the All Mighty and the Afterlife.This is quite out of the ordinary,isn't it?Well I just finished a "debate" with my cousin,Arif.
Started out with him telling me of how inappropriate my "
perangai" was,as told by relatives.Also the issue,was me not wearing the
tudung.So there he went telling me it's not this life that counts,but the Afterlife.That I agree.He went on and on,as if interrogating me for this crime of not using the
tudung.
Well,it's not a crime.It is afterall a
sin.
I don't purposely sin and this does not apply technically.I wouldn't mind at all wearing it now,but I'd just be lying to myself.It's as simple as "I'm not ready",yet so hard to explain.I don't expect anyone to understand,really.In the first place,explaining to someone wouldn't matter.For one,it's because it's between me and The Merciful.Everyone's accounted accordingly to their own actions and responsibilities.
In this case,my reason for not wearing is my lack of
iman.I've yet to even perfect the basics such as the obligatory 5 prayers.I also do not wish to be those girls who wear,not because of Him but for the sake of wearing it.I'm no one to say because no one is perfect andby not wearing,I am sinning.But I know God would understand,wouldn't he?I pray that one day,I'd be a good
muslimah and may that day come soon.
Insya'allah.Ya Allah,help me.Give me
hidayah,the guidance and the strength.Distant me away from all evil and sins.You Are My Saviour.Ya Allah,please also forgive my parents,my relatives,my friends and all
muslimin and
muslimah around the world.Only You Almighty,can help them.Ya Allah,help us all.
♥
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Days where,I'm tested on my lousy usage of the Chinese launguage,annoys me.A typed conversation for the scenario wouldn't help either(like eating spaghetti with a kebab stick).So yesterday was one of those days(eg. I was trying to remember the words for "further up").
It's April now.
(April's fools lame.period)
Marks the starting of school and anything pertaining school.I'm pretty excited that I finally have a place to be at,since I've not been to one for more than a year.I don't have to hang around aimlessly around this tiny island,or rot endless at home as well.And JBS a school?JBS being a place to study,would be an understatement.
shit.i don't have shoes for camp.Which reminds me of straightening the Medusa hair and retail theraphy.I forgot to add..To find the bloody money for shopping.pfft.
♥
Saturday, April 29, 2006
I haven't heard the 4-letter word from Ashlee Simpson's song title,in a very long time.Usually it's something to dwell upon or to forget when it gets too much to handle.The upcoming days however,I've decided how much that I don't need a boy to make me happy.
To even begin with,no boy's probably ever going to get me loving like I did then.Maybe he did.And maybe it was due to me being naive and inability to understand what we even had then.For that,as long as he made me happy,it would equate to love.
Sad,isn't it?
Hold on a sec.Sympathy and/or matchmaking me with a friend of yours is what I least need right now.
However,there's the priority of doing well in my studies.I really want to get a scholarship,so I can do that 3years in Lanscape Architecture.Yeah,big ambitions.
Think I should enlarge my circle of friends?I think I've already done that.So much so that it can be quite difficult to remember everyone's names.Don't worry Nadj,I didn't forget you.what a sweetheart he is for letting me sleep after nightwalk.
I do need a malay boy who I can converse in English though.Those who I can actually sit around with and talk about issues,that only the eccentric us will udnerstand.smirks.
I'm hungry.I shall call Mommy to buy food.So long.
♥
Friday, April 28, 2006
This weekend seems to be jam-packed with stuff.I don't know about tomorrow but Sunday,I'll be going out with Melv&Co to celebrate his birthday.Met them today as well for our usual game of pool.
Oh yes.Clarence Leow can be such a turn-on.
He has solid hard 8pack.Too bad no girl's going to enjoy that,since he "
Prefer to flirt around:)".And I like the feel of my finger,stroking the jersey-kinda material aginst his body.I like the material.
Richard Gere has lost to him.*shockshock*
♥
Thursday, April 27, 2006
advance 17th birthday wish..
HAPPY 7teen BIRTHDAY TO ADILIN ISMAIL AND JARED PETER DE MELLO.
i've yet to get melvynmartinchong's present.
i need to get something special.oh damn.
♥
Canoeing
trial training yesterday has made my entire body aching all over.There's also the shuddering thought that that it was only 1/3 of the actual trainings.WTF.
"Training" (the 2.4km,120push-ups,40squats,20sets of jumping-jacks and sprinting) was obviously too intensive for me.Counting the fact that I've only had any form of fitness twice in the entire of my 1 and half years of not schooling.
Creative and Applied Thinking Skills (CATS) was simply unnecessary.I simply think that it all still comes down to each individual,when creativity and responsibility are concerned.I can;t believe NP made it a bloody module.
On a lighter note,my SW (or as farhan calls it,P.E) is Netball.The bad news is,we're all starting from basics and that I actually wanted HipHop/Tennis.It was a mad rush for the sports that you wanted.As for my CCA,I've not decided.
And guess what?
Today was the first day that I skipped class,since not even 9.15am could save me.I did went to get a MC though.
Kental,I know.
OH BLOODY HELL.MY LEGS HURT NAK MAMPOS!
BODOH PUNYE CANOEING.
♥
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
My posts are paragraphs after paragraphs of words.Wouldn't suprise me if someone went head-slamming on their keyboards suddenly,whilst reading my entries.This thing needs more splish&splashes of visuals.Soooooooon.
I want to play Netball soon!
I want/NEED to keep myself busy!
I HAVE HAVE HAVE to get a schloarship (however you spell it)!
Don't ask me why I'm suddenly so driven.It's a question I've yet to answer myself.
♥
School was VERY short today and I found out that I've to print out massive amounts of lecture notes.Dangs.Why can't they just issue out the modules in binds and sell it to us?
SW (Sports and Wellness aka P.E) and IS module (Creative thinking skills).Ought to be interesting,though I still don't know what I'd be doing for SW.Hopefully it's netball or something.
Shit I'm late for town.Lynnette's birthday,remember?
♥
Monday, April 24, 2006
Someone turns 7teen tomorrow,so here's a heads up..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,LYNNETTE HUANG(GEMOK)!Overly-concerned parents driven by paranoia is torture.One is quite enough but imagine having two.I ought to learn how to play mute/deaf/both.Let all the ranting go into one ear and out the other in a split second.
First day of school today and I couldn't stop laughing.I had the wonderful company,and I predict more to come,of Jonathan,Elfie and Iqbal.The malay guys uttered nothing close to sensible,except when it came to doing the worksheets.Speaking of work,I started off school with learning the basics of Chemistry (i.e Atoms and Mol Concept).Just when all of us thought we wouldn't see anything resembling our secondary years.
Practical was all cute and amusing with us all "dressed up" with lab coats,goggles and disposal gloves.And I swear Ngee Ann has alot of money.With every usage of a disposal dropper,you can dispose them after use.
Meeting the guys at 7.30 tomorrow,making me wonder why everyone comes to class so bloody early.I finish at 12pm tomorrow and it's Gelare Day!Oh the joy.Have I mentioned that I am beginning to find school pleasant?
My brother and mum's watching
Dia,while I can hardly bother.Bloody soap.
♥
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Farhan,remind me not to join NP's student union ever.
It sucks to know that people there would only bother having a decent conversation with you,if a) you could possibly be prom king/queen or b) you have money to go on an impulse shopping spree at ZARA's.
Now that irks me.
It's the opposite for my LSCT people.
I ADORE THEM!
Mind you,we aren't a bunch of nerds who indulge in reading about morphology or CATS (at least,not all of us).We not only have our own eye candy,but they also look at you for what you are.
Have I also mentioned that one of the graduates resembles the last ex-boyfriend slightly?I also find his name amusing,since it's so formal.Think "Mahathir".heh.
My throat's sore from all the cheering in camp and it's not getting any better.The day after camp itself,I didn't have the chance to stop talking.I had a shopping spree with mum and she made me answer to all her fashion dilemmas.She's so "ON" these days.Even wanted to take me to the movies after shopping,but it was
malam jumaat.I think i'm watching Ice Age 2 with her this tuesday though.I FINISH AT 12pm ON TUESDAYS!
As for the CCA fiesta on friday,refer to
Farhan's blog.I reckon whatever we did in the LT was similar.The difference,was probably the fact that i have a lecturer named mr chang,who is culturally inclined.Plus,he talks in a way that he reminds me of Jackie Chan's uncle in the cartoon series.Hilarious!Jonathan and I felt that it was too bad he didn't teach us any of our modules.
Oh yeah.All the schools had a telematch afterwards and again,this you can refer to
Farhan's blog.
Yesterday,I went to the infamous island,where married men find their third part-y/-ies.It's scary how the locals can differentiate us foreigners real quickly.Like when you if you're in need of a cab,fret not.Stand by the roadside for a mere 10seconds and -poof- 7cabs (not to mention mini vans and private cars as well) would be at your service straight away.It almost felt like hitch-hiking.
I'm a little sick now,due to the bad pollution there.Too many people fagging around,even in the public transport.Oh yes.Don't be suprised if along the way,you'd be sharing a cab with a stranger (even though there's already 5 of you,incl. driver,in the car).
Arif did most of the shopping there while yours truly came back,with a black tee that said "smart girl".heh.I need a bag for school.Damn.
Speaking of school,here's the time table.
monday: 9am-4pm
tuesday: 8am-12pm
wednesday: 1pm-5pm
thursday: 9am-5pm
friday: 10am-6pm
Most of my lectures are in the classrooms.damn.And why the world are one of my practicals being conducted in the LT?
{p/s}
My dear bestfriend,I'm sorry I wasn't able to join you and Rajiv yesterday.Will see you two soon okay?Muchlove.
♥
Saturday, April 22, 2006
leaving my link at farhan's blog was done intentionally.if it's not obvious enough for you,well here.you see,leaving my link there will inevitably let others come to my blog.why the sudden re-occurrence of an audience,you ask...simple.
because that's how blogging works.a blog would only be a blog,at least even feel like a blog,when you know that there's an avid audience knowing the latest hoo-haa you've created.
it's a
love-hate relationship between the audience and the blogger,this i just found out.
if it's kept a secret,then it might just become a white elephant later on.you'll not bother updating,since you know that it's not as if anyone's reading..which leads to you hardly updating.so i guess if there's anything personal to be written,then it'll just have to stay as draft.
i'm contented with life now and school looks pleasantly good.i think i've found a new bestfriend,jonathan.will update soon,but now..i've got to head to batam for shopping(if there is even anything to shop for).so yes.
welcome back,dear fans:)
♥
Sunday, April 16, 2006
For the first time ever,me and best friend caught a movie on impulse.That is,the first time for both of us even on our own."Take The Lead" would only be an a-okay movie with an a-ookay storyline,if it weren't for the dancing scenes.Makes you want to learn all the twist and turns of every dance existing.
I don't think I'm ever going to have a "proper" shopping spree.Everytime I go out,I end up going home with only 1 measely bag each time.Today,I only got a pretty brown cardigan for $15.90 @ Isetan.
There's the need for the shopping spree.The ecstacy of holding the many bags to indicate that one did have a shopping spree,is a mighty feeling.For me,at least.I know how shallow it sounds but -shrugs-
Oh yes.The whole point of this entry is to tell you about the FOC camp.Despite the lack of enthuism from my group,it was all joy and tears.Suprising what camps can do to people who hardly know anothers' name.Bonds were definitely made,since tears were shed when camp broke.Sentimental.Alright,I did cry.
Speaking of camps,there's another for me tomorrow.This time by the School of Life Sciences and Chemical Technology,which my course is under.And again,there's packing to be done.So last minute.
Nighters,love.Takecare.
♥
Sunday, April 09, 2006
It's a bittersweet thing,now that my ugly red friend is here.At least I know it won't come in the middle of camp.But how am I going to cope in camp now?Also,I haven't even gotten the bag out,what's more pack.
My cousin's other grandfather passed away yesterday.
al-fatihahThe past few days have been exhausting and I'm sure it'll continue for the next 2weeks.There's also definitely gonna be change soon.I'm excited,yet also unsure as to how it's all going to affect me on the whole.
I need to calm myself down.Maybe I will just go for spa,as what mama mentioned.There's also shopping to be done.And no,I don't have any other weekdays free next week:(
♥
Saturday, April 08, 2006
when you have mak's with good company,what more can you ask for?
there are way too many of the boys who's names start with "H".hamdi,haziq,halim.next time,i'll just poke them and go "eh boy" or something.and saying how hilarious they are,will be an understatement.heh
highlight of the day:
LIN GOT SCARED BY A CAT!!!HAHAHAHHA.we really ought to do something for mr rizal soon.he even belanje farhan,aka self-invited,with a smile(SHAME FARHAN SHAME).oh yes.lin was having her usual bitch fit about the
boncet people(well they self-proclaimed).
i'm so beat,hafiz is so sweet.oooohhh it rhymes.
shopping on friday please.
♥
Thursday, April 06, 2006
topman has more of a variety for me than what topshop has to offer.why oh why is there even such an irony?i mean,our male counterparts(excl. the overly metrosexual and the halfs) hardly bother looking good.the gut's saying that sooner or later,i'll have men's clothes.
from the coming weekends till the next 2weeks,i think i'll be busy.i do mean busy to the abnormal extent,since i have been rotting my mind senseless at home.
there's the rizal-ers gathering which i
will be going(lin take note!) and the upcoming camps and orientations.speaking of camps,have i mention that i have a bad feeling about camp?i don't think it's gonna be as pleasant as it should be(mental note: me shall pretend to have a delirious stomachache and go home if it turns bad).
i've yet to pack my stuff.and speaking of which,i just found out that all the camping stuff are under heaps of heavy boxes.many heavy boxes.there's also the washing of my stinky shoes to do.
suddenly,camping isn't a pretty thought.maybe i won't go.
♥
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
-kachingkachingkaching-
me is gonna be a very very happy girl.i can't believe mommy actually gave me a hundred to spend for shopping.this is teh first time ever.guess she's busy than usual,since usually..it's either my own money that's being used or she's with me for shopping.i sure sound like a spoilt brat now.ah vell.
oh mummy dear,you're lovelovelove.
i realised i don't have shoes for camp.plus,the idea of my period colliding with camp is very disturbing.oh please please come now.ugh.shopping anyone???
♥
Monday, April 03, 2006
Everyday,we sin.Ya Allah,forgive us.
(I fear for saying things wrongly and for that,Ya Allah..Please forgive me.)
Islam is the most glorious thing on this planet,even though I've yet to master even the basics.I'm terrified of no other but the All Mighty and the Afterlife.This is quite out of the ordinary,isn't it?Well I just finished a "debate" with my cousin,Arif.
Started out with him telling me of how inappropriate my "
perangai" was,as told by relatives.Also the issue,was me not wearing the
tudung.So there he went telling me it's not this life that counts,but the Afterlife.That I agree.He went on and on,as if interrogating me for this crime of not using the
tudung.
Well,it's not a crime.It is afterall a
sin.
I don't purposely sin and this does not apply technically.I wouldn't mind at all wearing it now,but I'd just be lying to myself.It's as simple as "I'm not ready",yet so hard to explain.I don't expect anyone to understand,really.In the first place,explaining to someone wouldn't matter.For one,it's because it's between me and The Merciful.Everyone's accounted accordingly to their own actions and responsibilities.
In this case,my reason for not wearing is my lack of
iman.I've yet to even perfect the basics such as the obligatory 5 prayers.I also do not wish to be those girls who wear,not because of Him but for the sake of wearing it.I'm no one to say because no one is perfect andby not wearing,I am sinning.But I know God would understand,wouldn't he?I pray that one day,I'd be a good
muslimah and may that day come soon.
Insya'allah.Ya Allah,help me.Give me
hidayah,the guidance and the strength.Distant me away from all evil and sins.You Are My Saviour.Ya Allah,please also forgive my parents,my relatives,my friends and all
muslimin and
muslimah around the world.Only You Almighty,can help them.Ya Allah,help us all.
♥
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Days where,I'm tested on my lousy usage of the Chinese launguage,annoys me.A typed conversation for the scenario wouldn't help either(like eating spaghetti with a kebab stick).So yesterday was one of those days(eg. I was trying to remember the words for "further up").
It's April now.
(April's fools lame.period)
Marks the starting of school and anything pertaining school.I'm pretty excited that I finally have a place to be at,since I've not been to one for more than a year.I don't have to hang around aimlessly around this tiny island,or rot endless at home as well.And JBS a school?JBS being a place to study,would be an understatement.
shit.i don't have shoes for camp.Which reminds me of straightening the Medusa hair and retail theraphy.I forgot to add..To find the bloody money for shopping.pfft.
